u/cjmacember

I put down my childhood dog, chuck, on Tuesday. He was sixteen years old and he has been part of my family since I was five.
I don’t know how to cope. I can’t even think of him without bursting into tears. Today has been especially hard because I was woken up by a call from the vet to tell me that his ashes are ready for pickup.
I don’t live with my family, and my parents are out of town anyways. My roommate does not have the capacity to support me in any regard, and I think I’ve really screwed things over with one of my friends because of the grief induced anxious breakdown.
I just feel so alone. I can barely eat or sleep, and I’ve been trying to be as busy as possible just so I don’t have to sit with these feelings, which I know isn’t good in the long run, but I can’t make these feelings go away.
I don’t know why I’m posting here. Maybe just to be heard and maybe have my feelings acknowledged. Nothing else has helped so far. I don’t know what to do now that he’s gone.

I put down my childhood dog, chuck, on Tuesday. He was sixteen years old and he has been part of my family since I was five.
I don’t know how to cope. I can’t even think of him without bursting into tears. Today has been especially hard because I was woken up by a call from the vet to tell me that his ashes are ready for pickup.
I don’t live with my family, and my parents are out of town anyways. My roommate does not have the capacity to support me in any regard, and I think I’ve really screwed things over with one of my friends because of the grief induced anxious breakdown.
I just feel so alone. I can barely eat or sleep, and I’ve been trying to be as busy as possible just so I don’t have to sit with these feelings, which I know isn’t good in the long run, but I can’t make these feelings go away.
I don’t know why I’m posting here. Maybe just to be heard and maybe have my feelings acknowledged. Nothing else has helped so far. I don’t know what to do now that he’s gone.

I’m on Wellbutrin and Vyvanse and mostly refrain from smoking weed and drinking, but when I do it’s in small amounts. An event is coming up and I want to try smoking weed again (I used to be a huge stoner before going on my meds) but I’m afraid to because I know there can be bad side effects.
Has anyone else here tried smoking or taking edibles on the same combo of meds? If so what’s your experience?

Edit: also I should add that I take both quiviviq and guanfacine for sleep

Ancient Greek philosophers widely accepted Achilles’ and Patroclus’ to be homoromantic. The debates on their relationship revolved around who took on the “dominant” and who took on the “passive” roles in the relationship. In modern terms, they debated about who stuck it in whose mud cake (or who was the top and bottom).
Which roles do you redditors believe were occupied by Achilles and Patroclus?
(This is for actual research purposes).