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I misunderstood TSM for years and became stuck controlling body sensations

Hi, I’m trying to articulate my experience with TSM because I feel stuck and I need help.

I was introduced to TSM when I was around 15. I heard people talking about it on Youtube and became curious, but I don’t think I really understood what releasing meant.

Instead of allowing feelings to come up and pass, I think I started trying to create a specific feeling in my body, catch it, then trying to figure it out, and ending up stuck. Over time, this became a pattern that I was constantly scanning my body, trying to identify sensations, control them, and fix whatever felt wrong.

Now I'm looking back, I feel like I was doing the opposite of what the method is about. Instead of letting go, I became hyper focused on my body and emotions. The sensations became more intense, and I started feeling trapped in them. I’ve developed a lot of body tension, pain, anxiety, panic, and even diseases, and I feel like my nervous system is constantly activated.

Now I feel like I don’t know how to stop this pattern. I feel stuck inside my own feelings and body sensations, and I don’t know who I am without trying to control or fix them, like I'm living in delusions.

I’ve tried therapy, but no therapist really understood what I'm going through.

Has anyone gone through something similar, where trying to release became a form of control or hyper fixation?

I’d really appreciate any advice or perspective, as I'm in a very dark place, and in so much pain.

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u/clockmakerOnMars — 4 months ago
▲ 0 r/Baguazhang

A secret

In summary, I just got done training for 8hrs straight. Sitting in full lotus and gathering and condensing so much qi you dont even know. Do you even know what qi is??

Or are you just larping on the internet?

Styles and movement are irrelevant if you train the qi correctly. Too bad you dont, and I do.

Also my qi is so strong from meditation that I could easily dominate any combat organization and revive the reputation of neijiaquan any time I wanted. Easily.

Paid fighters are just lucky I dont want to right now. Sure, there is literally nothing to stop me from entering paid tournaments and easily walking away with the prize money unscathed to make a nice living for myself and promote my very authentic secret teachings on the mic, or having documented and recorded fights as verification. But you just want me to dox myself? Trust me bro, I could be the next McGregor with this qi coursing through my merideans. Arent my words convincing?

So please stop giving internal martial arts a bad name! Because Im pretty much the only real practitioner left and its heavy lifting keeping true neijiaquan preserved all by myself.

  • thats how you sound in every post. Go do anything of consequence
u/clockmakerOnMars — 4 months ago
▲ 12 r/BuyItForLife

What is a brand of sock that is The Most Slippery on a hard dry polished surface like marble or porcelain?

A good silk or bamboo material probably has the lowest coefficient? 🧦

I dont wanna moonwalk, i wanna moonrunnn

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u/clockmakerOnMars — 6 months ago