u/cowmoolk

For context, we have been dating for a little over 6 months and live together. We’re friends for two years prior. I (19F) have been thru some pretty traumatic shit life & past relationships wise, and my boyfriend (21M) is so perfect. He’s so sweet to me, takes care of me since im chronically ill and can’t do much for myself (I pass out if standing/walking for too long). He’s financially responsible for me & takes care of my dog too. He’s, so amazing to me.

But im uncomfortable with him having female friends, or talking to any girl if it’s not necessary. We both play a lot of video games together, I told him im not comfy with him having female friends or talking to females unless its work related, friends gfs, family, medical, etc.

I unintentionally had a double standard and was friends with 3 guys though (I have a very hard time making female friends or friends in general I have severe anxiety. My bf can start a conversation with literally anybody). All online. One I befriended thinking it was a femboy, the other I thought was a girl bc of their username. I ended up getting stuck in friendships because of this factor. The last one was an old long-time friend I felt bad unadding because one year my family was very poor and he paid for our Christmas. He called this double standard out, i acknowledged it, and then blocked my friends. Any time he is uncomfortable with anybody (even the friends I knew since I was a kid) I blocked. Instantly. So I do this and he gets upset because he doesn’t want me to lose friends because I already don’t have any. And he said that basically, I need to deal with it because having friends of the other gender is normal. And while he has a point, just because he’s comfy with something doesn’t mean I am.

Im a very jealous person. I get jealous when he’s petting the dog instead of watching me play a horror game. And I acknowledge that. And I want to get better. But it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach. I physically am so sick and so close to throwing up any time I think about him holding a conversation with another girl. I don’t know how to fix this. I love him. I go to therapy because I want to be better for him I know I have issues because of my trauma but I can’t help but feel sick to my stomach when it comes to other girls.

I don’t want him talking to them, I don’t want him having female friends and I would happily sacrifice male friends and conversations too because I have him so I don’t need or crave it. He says he doesn’t care and then continues to fight for me to not be uncomfortable with it because that’s what is healthy in his eyes. But like. Why fight for it then ?

I know I can be a bit much- jealous, controlling, whatever. I don’t care. I probably am toxic but I don’t yell or degrade him or treat him like shit ever. Im just a sensitive cry baby and I can’t fucking help the way I feel I’ve tried but I can’t stop wanting to throw up and cry when I think of it. And anytime it’s brought up I have an anxiety attack.

We both agree porn is damaging and don’t watch it. But we also argued because I told him im not comfy with him watching certain movies if its basically porn with a story line or its focused mainly on tryna have sex with women. It makes me, once again, sick to my stomach.

I was playing outlast, if you don’t know, it’s a horror game about a psychiatric facility. I get scared easily so I was having him watch me play it today. There’s a Scene where you walk down a hall and behind a box there’s 2 people having sex while another deranged man watches. I ran away because, like I said, sick. The thought of him seeing that, makes me sick. He said “wait no go back” (basically made a joke about it) and im like.. why do you wanna watch that ? I don’t wanna see anybody having sex why do you? To me, it doesn’t matter if it’s a horror game or not I see it as borderline goreporn. Anything that shows nudity to me is pornographic material. And no, I don’t care if we are playing a game and there’s sex in it or a scene pops up in a movie (it would make me uncomfy and I wouldn’t want it to happen but i wouldn’t bring it up or get visibly upset) My issue is if you WANT to watch that or the entire media (game, movie, book, etc..) is based around sex. I didn’t bring up the outlast thing bothering me, because he said im always bothered by something and I don’t want him to feel that way.

Am I the issue? Am I bad gf? Do I not trust him ? Am I too insecure?

I can’t help but feel the way I do and I don’t know how to fix it and I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Am I too jealous/sensitive?

For context, we have been dating for a little over 6 months and live together. We’re friends for two years prior. I (19F) have been thru some pretty traumatic shit life & past relationships wise, and my boyfriend (21M) is so perfect. He’s so sweet to me, takes care of me since im chronically ill and can’t do much for myself (I pass out if standing/walking for too long). He’s financially responsible for me & takes care of my dog too. He’s, so amazing to me.

But im uncomfortable with him having female friends, or talking to any girl if it’s not necessary. We both play a lot of video games together, I told him im not comfy with him having female friends or talking to females unless its work related, friends gfs, family, medical, etc.

I unintentionally had a double standard and was friends with 3 guys though (I have a very hard time making female friends or friends in general I have severe anxiety. My bf can start a conversation with literally anybody). All online. One I befriended thinking it was a femboy, the other I thought was a girl bc of their username. I ended up getting stuck in friendships because of this factor. The last one was an old long-time friend I felt bad unadding because one year my family was very poor and he paid for our Christmas. He called this double standard out, i acknowledged it, and then blocked my friends. Any time he is uncomfortable with anybody (even the friends I knew since I was a kid) I blocked. Instantly. So I do this and he gets upset because he doesn’t want me to lose friends because I already don’t have any. And he said that basically, I need to deal with it because having friends of the other gender is normal. And while he has a point, just because he’s comfy with something doesn’t mean I am.

Im a very jealous person. I get jealous when he’s petting the dog instead of watching me play a horror game. And I acknowledge that. And I want to get better. But it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach. I physically am so sick and so close to throwing up any time I think about him holding a conversation with another girl. I don’t know how to fix this. I love him. I go to therapy because I want to be better for him I know I have issues because of my trauma but I can’t help but feel sick to my stomach when it comes to other girls.

I don’t want him talking to them, I don’t want him having female friends and I would happily sacrifice male friends and conversations too because I have him so I don’t need or crave it. He says he doesn’t care and then continues to fight for me to not be uncomfortable with it because that’s what is healthy in his eyes. But like. Why fight for it then ?

I know I can be a bit much- jealous, controlling, whatever. I don’t care. I probably am toxic but I don’t yell or degrade him or treat him like shit ever. Im just a sensitive cry baby and I can’t fucking help the way I feel I’ve tried but I can’t stop wanting to throw up and cry when I think of it. And anytime it’s brought up I have an anxiety attack.

We both agree porn is damaging and don’t watch it. But we also argued because I told him im not comfy with him watching certain movies if its basically porn with a story line or its focused mainly on tryna have sex with women. It makes me, once again, sick to my stomach.

I was playing outlast, if you don’t know, it’s a horror game about a psychiatric facility. I get scared easily so I was having him watch me play it today. There’s a Scene where you walk down a hall and behind a box there’s 2 people having sex while another deranged man watches. I ran away because, like I said, sick. The thought of him seeing that, makes me sick. He said “wait no go back” (basically made a joke about it) and im like.. why do you wanna watch that ? I don’t wanna see anybody having sex why do you? To me, it doesn’t matter if it’s a horror game or not I see it as borderline goreporn. Anything that shows nudity to me is pornographic material. And no, I don’t care if we are playing a game and there’s sex in it or a scene pops up in a movie (it would make me uncomfy and I wouldn’t want it to happen but i wouldn’t bring it up or get visibly upset) My issue is if you WANT to watch that or the entire media (game, movie, book, etc..) is based around sex. I didn’t bring up the outlast thing bothering me, because he said im always bothered by something and I don’t want him to feel that way.

Am I the issue? Am I bad gf? Do I not trust him ? Am I too insecure?

I can’t help but feel the way I do and I don’t know how to fix it and I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Any sfw AFFORDABLE little gear shops? I can only seem to find nsfw centered stores or sfw shops that are like $80 a paci which is valid for the effort and supplies but I am poor 😭🙏 I’ve been getting lots of stuff from Walmart and am wanting things that are specifically for age regression instead of toddlers

For context, we have been dating for a little over 6 months and live together. We’re friends for two years prior. I (19F) have been thru some pretty traumatic shit life & past relationships wise, and my boyfriend (21M) is so perfect. He’s so sweet to me, takes care of me since im chronically ill and can’t do much for myself (I pass out if standing/walking for too long). He’s financially responsible for me & takes care of my dog too. He’s, so amazing to me.

But im uncomfortable with him having female friends, or talking to any girl if it’s not necessary. We both play a lot of video games together, I told him im not comfy with him having female friends or talking to females unless its work related, friends gfs, family, medical, etc.

I unintentionally had a double standard and was friends with 3 guys though (I have a very hard time making female friends or friends in general I have severe anxiety. My bf can start a conversation with literally anybody). All online. One I befriended thinking it was a femboy, the other I thought was a girl bc of their username. I ended up getting stuck in friendships because of this factor. The last one was an old long-time friend I felt bad unadding because one year my family was very poor and he paid for our Christmas. He called this double standard out, i acknowledged it, and then blocked my friends. Any time he is uncomfortable with anybody (even the friends I knew since I was a kid) I blocked. Instantly. So I do this and he gets upset because he doesn’t want me to lose friends because I already don’t have any. And he said that basically, I need to deal with it because having friends of the other gender is normal. And while he has a point, just because he’s comfy with something doesn’t mean I am.

Im a very jealous person. I get jealous when he’s petting the dog instead of watching me play a horror game. And I acknowledge that. And I want to get better. But it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach. I physically am so sick and so close to throwing up any time I think about him holding a conversation with another girl. I don’t know how to fix this. I love him. I go to therapy because I want to be better for him I know I have issues because of my trauma but I can’t help but feel sick to my stomach when it comes to other girls.

I don’t want him talking to them, I don’t want him having female friends and I would happily sacrifice male friends and conversations too because I have him so I don’t need or crave it. He says he doesn’t care and then continues to fight for me to not be uncomfortable with it because that’s what is healthy in his eyes. But like. Why fight for it then ?

I know I can be a bit much- jealous, controlling, whatever. I don’t care. I probably am toxic but I don’t yell or degrade him or treat him like shit ever. Im just a sensitive cry baby and I can’t fucking help the way I feel I’ve tried but I can’t stop wanting to throw up and cry when I think of it. And anytime it’s brought up I have an anxiety attack.

We both agree porn is damaging and don’t watch it. But we also argued because I told him im not comfy with him watching certain movies if its basically porn with a story line or its focused mainly on tryna have sex with women. It makes me, once again, sick to my stomach.

I was playing outlast, if you don’t know, it’s a horror game about a psychiatric facility. I get scared easily so I was having him watch me play it today. There’s a Scene where you walk down a hall and behind a box there’s a deformed guy having sex with a dead beheaded body while another deranged man watches. I ran away because, like I said, sick. The thought of him seeing that, makes me sick. He said “wait no go back” (basically made a joke about it) and im like.. why do you wanna watch that ? I don’t wanna see anybody having sex why do you? To me, it doesn’t matter if it’s a horror game or not I see it as borderline goreporn. Anything that shows nudity to me is pornographic material. And no, I don’t care if we are playing a game and there’s sex in it or a scene pops up in a movie (it would make me uncomfy and I wouldn’t want it to happen but i wouldn’t bring it up or get visibly upset) My issue is if you WANT to watch that or the entire media (game, movie, book, etc..) is based around sex. I didn’t bring up the outlast thing bothering me, because he said im always bothered by something and I don’t want him to feel that way.

Am I the issue? Am I bad gf? Do I not trust him ? Am I too insecure?

I can’t help but feel the way I do and I don’t know how to fix it and I don’t know what’s wrong with me.