u/cozyjules

Hey i smoked weed earlier and i wrote an essay on human psychology. It’s been a current hyperfixation and I’ve been wanting to journal about it but i didn’t know how to make it not sound like an essay and I hate hate hate writing in essay format and sounding professional. Okay this is the entry:

There are different kinds of play kids engage in when as they traverse their way to adulthood. Thy don’t quite understand even the physics of this new world yet. Things fall if knocked over. Things fall, period. Cause gravity.

They’re learning their senses, and that’s got to be so fucking overwhelming. They don’t know what tastes or smells or colors are or what sounds mean and how long did it take before we learned most of the sounds of the world? We all know what thunder is. Shit when was my first thunderstorm i wonder?  

But entering this new world has got to be fantastic and scary and so brand new! Gosh, life was novelty after novelty at first. And so of course kids aren’t gonna know how to process things like emotions and what right from wrong is they can’t even fucking talk yet anyway even if they did know. Being a kid prolly fucking blew but was so awesome at the same time lol

But yea just all this new shit. Sensory play is basically the first kind of play for kids. Examples are super simple! Letting them touch different textures and teeth on (safe) toys meant for babies and just like handing them a random object and letting them fell the thing. They can’t do this right out of the box. They’re pretty boring and useless when they hatch so give them a minute and you can do the hand thing.

Anyway when they can actually goddamn walk comes the constructive play. They start moving way sooner than convenient for the parents. They’re running around but also sometimes play with blocks and like to line things up and sort things and building things with the blocks and knocking them over. They learn (as stated before) the physics of this world. Gravity, cause and effect, just like doing recon on they environment type shit.

Anyway kids really let their sentience shine with this kind of play. Number three is pretend play. They pretend to be the things they’ve seen the parents do, things they’ve seen teachers and grown ups and other kids and older kids and they’ll fucking cuss because they mimic. They’ll also air out your dirty fucking laundry so be careful because that’s rude as fuck of them. But yeah this play is all about mimicry, learning lessons, learning to be empathetic, having different perspectives, and experimenting with different identities. Just like giving them ya know some morals and developing they personality.

Four is coordination but man fuckg that shit for real i don’t know nothing about no coordination i need to revisit her later (i was a fat and sedentary child ok)

Five is cooperative play. This is where your role as a citizen of America comes into play. Will they fall victim to being a statistic or will they succeed. You can usually tell what kind of person a kid is gonna be in their early years. This is obviously not cut and dry, but a pattern is a pattern folks. The loud kid that smelled like shit in high school later was sentenced to death for murdering his family. You see the connection. Duh. Moving on. Kids learn about what it’s like to play with others, build communication skills, develop patience through sharing and learning about fairness, learning to trust other people, among other things. I feel like this paragraph could get really long but my attention ain’t that great rn

Goddamn I’m fucked up but 6 is open ended play which like builds creativity and internal motivation I don’t even know wha Tim writing bro I’m fuckt weed strong
Alsooooooo focus bitch belief in self, example like blocks and like open ended shit man like sticks and paper and painting and creative shit
7 is moral development. This one is crucial cause people get killed a lot nowadays and you just don’t want ur kid to be a murderer because actually how fucking embarrassing fuck this one long it actually has it’s own goddamn list of numbers why do I actually have adhd bitch i got like 57 taps open in my mind
Ok her e we go this

-1. You’re feelings are real kid
-2. Other people have inner worlds too. They’re just as complex as you and it’s important to be considerate and kind.
3, you are so loved, even when you fall short. That sounds like a Jesus thing but no I don’t beelive in religion and that s a whole other fucking essay. Fuck that guy man fuck himmmmmmmmm
Fuck god
But no mom and dad will love you no matter what. Unless you rape people and kill kids or do something real bad. Then kid u messed up.
But like for the most part mom and dad love u
4.    You can try again. This builds persistence and belief in self and safe failure
5.    The world is worth engaging in. Wonder matters psychologically. We need to find meaning, we need awe and inspiration and imagination and reason for doing and you just need to find something so awe inspiring in this world that that can be your one reason for staying if you ever get too sad.
6.    Fairness matters. Share, take turns, help others, be a decent fucking human being kid, treat others how you want to be treated.

Okay number 8 is sense of self worth. Build their self esteem!!!! Words of affirmation and recognizing the joy of celebrating ones own success and loving yourself and complimenting yourself and building that self trust through your actions. If you say you’re gonna do the dishes, do the dishes like 90% of the time. We can’t be perfect but we can value integrity on most days. This develops into self respect. Integrity is so so important. Cowards don’t have integrity or self-worth. That’s why working on your own deeply rooted insecurities and facing your trauma and figuring you shit out is so important dude. People need to go to therapy and men need to figure their own emotions out because this is a broken backwards patriarchal sociatey that needs to stop raising boys into mean angry bitter jealous hateful abisive men.  Anyway yeah fuk the patriarchy we need to rewrite the way to raise our men. Bc damn they’re miserable and their killing themselves and us btw

Right anyway.

9 is the reason I’m here today. Whimsy and wonder. It’s the reason i love to create. It’s the reason i wanted to become this creative adult. I’ve alway been so creative and inspired and in awe of this world and that’s what’s kept me here. That’s the one thing I’ve always held onto even at my lowest. A Bitch loves to create. And i love to create whimsical things. It’d like I’m casting spells

Whimsy and wonder. What do they do?

They offer a richer, more saturated human experience. After all, this all comes down to do no harm and just love this crazy life. We experience whimsy and wonder in this world through atmosphere, surprise, joy, mystery, allure, openness, beauty, rituals, connection, and sensation

Movies and books and stories and play and singing and just soaking in the magic in this world.

Ya anyway that’s what i want my like nieces childhood to be like.

Bro if i was a god I’d make some awesome ass people man.

So like I’m coming up with a list of things to make her and fun things to do as her whimsical awesome aunt. I want her childhood to be absolutely magical and i know like why don’t i get my own kid? And shit i don’t know if it’s such a bad idea just like in general. Hell i think I’d wanna be raised by me. I wonder if i could just adopt. I think I’d make a cool foster parent.

I don’t know. I just think about the human mind and experience a lot and kids especially fascinate me. Just like how moldable they are. All comes down to nature vs nurture right? Well shit i think we can at least try to focus on what we can control. That being nurture. And hope you don’t raise a kid that people wonder if he’s always that much of an asshole or did his parents raise him that way. Be a decent person kid.