u/crushmylove

i see now that God was in the process of reshaping my heart and leading me away from sin, long before i recognized Him as doing so. i was hopeless, nihilistic and suicidal, but now i trust that God must've preserved my life for a reason, and i want to live in accordance to His will and plan for me. i pray that in due time, His plan and purpose for my life will become apparent, and i trust in Him to make all things work together for my good. my heart's profound despair is pierced by an immense joy, as a result of God's love embracing me in my wretchedness. He is my refuge, my protector, my everything.