u/crying3am

I have an Anthem HMO plan that started last month. First time with my own insurance so I have questions. So far, none of my appointments have shown up on my account or toward my deductible. I figured there is probably a delay, especially if the doctor’s office doesn’t bill insurance immediately.

My question is, what happens when I pay more than the deductible? As an example, let’s say my therapy appointments cost $150 a session and my deductible is $250. These are made up rates, I wish they were those numbers lol. If I’ve gone to two sessions and paid the therapist $300, do I get that $50 back from insurance? Or is it not as soon as you hit $250, it’s after the appointment where you hit $250?

And when I go in next time, they shouldn’t charge me, right? Or will I be charged until these things show up in my Anthem account?

I’ve read and heard that intellectualizing is a way to avoid feeling the emotions. And I’ve been told I do it by a few people throughout my life. Not my T. Not yet anyway lol.

But I don’t agree, or I don’t understand. Or these people are using the term incorrectly.

For me, I have felt the emotion, and continue to as I trying to wrap my head around it. Like I’ve seen the example of someone getting dumped and trying to analyze the relationship to see where it “went wrong” or where they were incompatible. But you can be upset and also do that? (Whether it’s helpful to do so is a different story) The other example I see is getting a diagnosis and reading a bunch about it instead of just being anxious, which??? Are you just supposed to sit there and be anxious??

Can someone explain this to me in a way that makes sense? How are you supposed to process your emotions by just sitting in them and… not thinking? Or what? Is it just having a lack of physical emotion when you talk about it? Help.

from like ten sessions ago! It means so much!

I’m so used to people not even listening, let alone remembering what I said. Legit blown away every time they bring up something I mentioned before. Especially the smaller stuff.

I’ve been with my current T for about a year, I like them a lot. This is my first real time in therapy. I think it’s going well, I feel like I’ve improved in areas and still have things to improve in. But I start to worry that I have too many things “wrong” and that I’m not focused enough. I don’t really feel that way but I’m worried my T might. Like for instance social anxiety is something I’m working through, and we’ll talk about it one week, but then I also have imposter syndrome at work and I might jump to that the next week or even in the same session. Then I might just talk about a memory from my childhood that may or may not relate. Etc.

I just want to know, am I doing it right? My T hasn’t really given any indication that she thinks I’m too scattered or not focused, but idk. For some reason I think there’s some secret number of sessions I’m supposed to be “better” in and if I’m not, then she’ll dump me as a client. Bc sometimes I see posts here where people ask “why have you been in therapy x amount of years??” and I always had the impression you could go to therapy indefinitely? I feel like I will always be working through things. Do people really just go for like a year and they’re better??

Sorry I’m being scattered again :P my question really boils down to, am I doing therapy wrong?

It’s been like this my whole life. I will start dreaming immediately. Even during a five minute nap. And I’m not talking about hypnogogic hallucinations, though I have those sometimes too. These are dreams. And they’re super vivid and I have multiple every night.

Sleep isn’t restful for me. It takes me a long time to fall asleep, but if woken up I can fall back asleep immediately. I average 6 to 8 hours every night, but I’m not incentivized to get more sleep because I wake up tired anyway. I could easily sleep 15 hours if given the opportunity. And I would still be tired. I used to get in trouble with my family because I “slept the whole day away.”

I don’t fall asleep in random places, I can keep my eyes open at work and driving. And it can take me hours to actually fall asleep.

Does anyone relate to this or know what this is?

It’s been like this my whole life. I will start dreaming immediately. Even during a five minute nap. And I’m not talking about hypnogogic hallucinations, though I have those sometimes too. These are dreams. And they’re super vivid and I have multiple every night.

Sleep isn’t restful for me. It takes me a long time to fall asleep, but if woken up I can fall back asleep immediately. I average 6 to 8 hours every night, but I’m not incentivized to get more sleep because I wake up tired anyway. I could easily sleep 15 hours if given the opportunity. And I would still be tired. I used to get in trouble with my family because I “slept the whole day away.”

I don’t fall asleep in random places, I can keep my eyes open at work and driving. And it can take me hours to actually fall asleep.

Does anyone relate to this or know what this is?

I’ve been working up to an Adderall XR dose of 30mg and my psychiatrist seems really surprised every time I go for my check in and say I don’t feel much of a change from the last dose.

I don’t feel it “kick in” or “wear off” like some people post about here. My mind doesn’t feel quiet, the racing thoughts are still there. The only effect I notice is that it’s more likely for me to be able to sit and work longer, which has been really great, don’t get me wrong. It’s like a 65% chance that happens on any day I take my meds. And frequently, when I don’t take meds, I am super fatigued. Otherwise, no noticeable effects or side effects. It’s felt the same since 20mg, below that there was no effects at all

Am I expecting too much? Maybe this med doesn’t “work” for me?