u/daddyslittleangell

hi people! so i wanted to ask for advice on how to build my confidence back because its so shattered. i am sabotaging any happiness i have coming for me because i feel i dont deserve it, and i end up stuck in a cycle of like pity partys if that makes sense. i have no self esteem and i am such a jealous person and i am my own biggest hater. i get compliments a decent amount so i think it is mostly internal. does anyone have any brutally honest tips to start feeling more confident in myself and start loving myself a lil more?

hi guys! so i F23 have gotten into an issue with my M33 boyfriend and im not sure if i am losing my mind. we have been together about 1 year. so we are in a situation where i may have anxiety about being pregnant(unrelated) and the topic of condoms have came up. so i REALLY try to be the gf where i dont press into toxic things and try to trust him.but we live next to eachother and i drove by his house at about 2am after getting ice cream and there was a car i didnt recognize parked directly outside. he lives with 2 of his siblings but they are both extremely un social and so it was weird. i tried to brush it off but i couldnt yk? and so i asked him and he brushed it off saying no one was over to see him or his siblings. okay.. then who is it? idk i need to just trust him right? and so back to the condom situation oops sorry, but we have never used condoms like once in our whole relationship(oops) and one time about a couple months ago he had a singular condom and said we should use it. we ended up not but i started to feel kinda unsure cuz like why just one? why not the whole box? and i asked him and he said he bought them for us. okay continue on. but since the car being outside i started to feel more unsure and so i asked him and he said they are two years old???? and then said im trying to accuse him of a lie and so i sent the ss of him saying he bought them for us and he immediately said he doesnt remember and just stood on that. he has had random small lies before about his body count and doing things while not. so idk if he genuinely forgot or its another lie covering up more. is this something i should trust him on? he has never cheated in me before that i know of so im at a battle.