Hi! I’m Jordan, 23F, and I live in Ohio! I struggle to connect with people, but I have been super lonely lately. I’d love to have some friends who maybe share one or more of my passions!
I love Jesus, Star Wars, languages (I speak French and am learning ASL), singing, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, ballet, animals/dogs (I have a mini poodle).
If you’d like to be friends please let me know!
I have been thinking about my difficulty with words. I have had words coming out wrong or not at all and it drives me so crazy. I've always been better at writing than speaking out loud, but it seems to be even worse lately.
Like at this Juneteenth celebration my church did, I was wearing a tank top, and in the evening it got cold. There were two issues. One, I had a sweater in my car, actually, but I was too anxious to get up and get it. It was like I was frozen in my seat. Which is not a speaking problem but something I can't seem to fix either. Then, one of the families asked if I wanted a blanket. I wanted to say yes, but before I could think, a “no” came out. Like I don’t want to be a bother, even though they weren’t using the blanket and logically it wouldn’t be an issue. And the thing is, not being able to get words out is a big part of the problem, because my mouth won’t let me later correct myself and say I actually do want the blanket.
Then another day I met with a couple of people to talk about the book we’re reading. I had pre-written some things during the journaling time so that I had some words to work with, because I knew it would be a struggle, but when I got there I just felt very frozen and awkward. They tried to ask me if I had any thoughts, because I also struggle with inserting my voice in group conversations, but I couldn’t get the words I had written down to come out of my mouth. And the thing was, I knew the solution, which was to text what I had written to them, but I couldn’t get myself to suggest that. Luckily, one of my friends suggested it, and I was able to say yes to it and it was fine, but I feel like this is why I struggle to make friends. Most people think I just don’t have anything to say, but I have so much to say; I just can’t get it to come out of my mouth, and it’s so frustrating. And I can’t even always say that I want to send it via text or some kind of writing, so I can’t always get the accommodations I need.
Important: I have autism and I process through writing. When I talk out loud, often words get stuck and I can’t get them out. I have worked to improve this but a lot of it is simply how my brain is wired. I also get overwhelmed easily so sometimes I don’t reply as quickly as I otherwise would. Just a couple things to know about me.
Area of study/work: I am trying to finish my Associate of Arts which is in Modern Languages (French). This summer I am working part time as a nanny for 3 kids, and this fall I will be working full time as a paraprofessional.
Hobbies/interests: I love music: listening, singing, dancing. I like cozy games like Stardew Valley. I am trying to lose weight so I go on walks when it’s nice out. I love movies and TV shows. I love languages; I speak French and want to learn Spanish and ASL. I am shy but very social so I love hanging out with my friends.
Tell us a bit about your Christian journey: I grew up in a Christian home, was baptized when I was 13/14, but didn’t experience Jesus until I was 21 at a Young Life camp. I had trouble wrapping my head around Jesus as a relationship until that summer when I felt God’s presence. I go to a non-denominational church (I actually just switched churches very recently so am still getting connected with this new church). I am currently reading Matthew, though I am not as disciplined as I would like to be.
What sort of person are you looking for? I don’t have much experience dating and I am the kind of person who likes to take things slowly, especially when it’s new to me. I am looking for someone kind and patient (who loves Jesus, obviously). Someone who likes dogs since I have a mini poodle. I would love to find someone who shares my interests and is also a bit nerdy.
Age range: 20-28
Would you be willing to do long distance/relocate? I live in Ohio and I wouldn’t want to be too far from my family, but I am open to long distance/relocating within the USA.
I was homeschooled from K-12 and took college classes online in high school. My mom was a licensed teacher so academically I did fine. I was all ready to go to college in Michigan (I’m in Ohio) and I was so excited. Bought stuff for my room and everything. And then they said they were requiring the covid vaccine and masks, and it all fell apart. My mom didn’t want me to get the vaccine (I do have a sensitive system) but I wish I had been strong enough to get it anyway. Wearing a mask would have been hard because of my autism and sensory issues, so at the time I chose to not go and stay home. But now I’m 23, not even an Associate’s degree, still living at home, and I deeply regret missing out on the freedom of a college experience. I regret it so much it hurts.