u/dense_dummy

Hi, sorry that this might seem silly but its really important to me and something ive been debating on for years. I am not contact with my entire family except one person on my mother's side, it wasnt always like this but I have always been involved in culture even though my situations sort of funny. I am born and raised on Noongar land but my roots are Kamilaroi, I never got taught about that countries traditions but was taught Noongar history by my Aboriginal mentors and clubs and sadly my family were not very good people, as in both parts are the type to spread rumours or break no contact and keep tabs on my life using my name so I am changing my name legally.

Because I cannot get new name from the very people I am trying to cut off permanently I was wondering if anyone could tell me what I could do to find it. I want to have my first be Aboriginal from one of the groups I'm from and I already have my other cultures for my middle name picked out. I want to add that I am very white looking but I am involved in my culture, atleast the one I grew up on just to clarify a bit more. I want to ask the elders here but I also dont know how they would react which is why im mentioning it here first to sort of see if its even acceptable to do in the first place since I know answers can vary given location and I also dont know if using a noongar name would be weird or not since I grew up here taught about this place but I'm blood related elsewhere.

Thank you to anyone who read this all the way through, I know it might seem like something extreme to do in my situation but I have been wanting to do this for so many years of my life and it feels like the option that will let me live my life comfortably since both sides of my family are pretty well known in the area and people talk. I hope that this didnt come off in a disrespectful way though, I tend to word things poorly from time to time if I'm trying to be careful about what info I share

Edit: just adding pinjarrab is what i grew up with. ngemba, Kamilaroi by blood.

I've tried changing servers, using a VPN, my hotspot instead of WiFi and it just wont move from the "connecting to server..." screen. Yes my game is up to date before you ask. Am I the only one having issues with this? I'm just playing on my nintendo switch so maybe thats the problem?

Want to experiment and make a gift for a friend, links to good canvas and/or art store recommendations for quality?

Hii I am very very amateur to art still, im only just now studying it properly but I often draw or make stuff to go with the flow of it and I want to make a few gifts for my best friend as her birthday is literally today and I have many projects of things I want to give but needed to wait to incorporate flowers and stuff she was given. I understand of course quality of products dont guarantee a good outcome, thats based on skill but I want to ensure that what I work with as paint isnt going to hold up poorly from time, sundamage or heat since I live in a very hot humid environment especially during summer. I also want to be sure that what I'm getting is worth the price and lastly Im still deciding on what paint medium to use that isnt watercolour since thats my usual go-to. I want a challenge that will still hold up and be opaque and can be layered without bleeding. I'm not a huge fan of plastic paints like acrylics but im not sure what other options there really is, I was wondering oil's would work well but I dont really know any places that sell them that isnt steeply priced. If anyone could please send information of some stuff that works well for your paintings especially if you live in Australian like environments I would really appreciate it since I want to give my all in making something that will last many many years to come and avoid cutting corners.

Thanks so much in advance for anyone that replies and sorry in advance if I am asking for the impossible, like I said when it comes to actual knowledge I am very amateur and just draw and paint based on trusting the process without really learning but i am learning a lot for this project(might end up burning out but still worth it) so please give me some grace about my ignorance, Much love. I have tried to search for some myself but I dont really know how well spotlight canvasses can hold up depending on environment :,]

Hi all, I'm 17 and have PoTS with very bad imposter syndrome about all of it, I hope this isnt insensitive to post. im struggling a lot with having to constantly be expected to work myself harder and being told I can get better when I just dont want to anymore because its not likely but i keep forcing myself to try out of shame and feeling like i am pretending or taking advantage of things meant for others with worse or severe conditions. I'll be honest and admit I probably say some stupid stuff and im sorry if its hurtful to anyone. I really hope its not and it isn't my intention im just admitting for the first time thst I dont want to keep trying to get better because while it seems so nice to be normal, I've had symptoms starting from 6 years old and constantly being told I might get better feels more depressing than just admitting defeat but im scared of what my doctor will think because I havent even started physical therapy yet but I cant afford it, im just tired. Sorry again if I seem out of touch.

I got diagnosed hardly a year ago but my symptoms were at rock bottom when I was 14/15. Ive been struggling with coeliac from the age of 4 and got diagnosed with that at 5 or 6. I get a lot of symptoms all the time and recently I had a really bad fainting episode that ended in me not being able to speak or move for an hour because my body was so fatigued than cue 2 days of pre-scynescope at just rolling over. I had thought I was doing really well beforehand and hadnt fainted for a month, I even considered applying for my first job but now afterwards I have this anxiety about going out unless its necessary. I have electrolytes, medications and compression socks. I have a green sunflower lanyard too but there isnt much that can be done besides what I already am and I feel so lazy. I literally take around 50 steps per day unless im going out and I know I could do more but I just feel like I cant? Its really weird because I have all these ambitions and I think im capable of doing stuff but I just cant get it done like I make up reasons for why I'm not doing something and avoid just accepting i dont need an excuse because it feels like I'm not severe. I've had people ask if I want to get on disability and it just feels like I would be taken advantage of that like I'm lying to make things worse than they are. Apart of me wants to just give up and rot inside my room all day and another is angry at myself for not just moving to sit outside even though the cold makes my body aches worse, laying in bed does too so I should just do something a bit better than being here but that requires effort. I feel like theres no use even looking for aids because they all are targeted towards people who are more severely disabled and a lot older. My doctor told me to not push myself but I feel so pitiful like I am literally the "discord mod living in my parents basement" but as a girl and by the beach. I am focusing on studying for now but like I cant even go to my best friends party because theres alcohol and my medication doesnt react well to it along with the fact I dont have a way home because I cant get my licence due to not having the income for lessons. Despite all of this I'm not really depressed like atleast this is the best I have ever been for a decade of my life but I feel like I will just have to live my life relying on my guardian forever. With my condition being chronic and not terminal I also worry about what the hell I'm supposed to do once they pass because I'm terrified to work but I also know its possible to because people worse off are capable of getting a job. I dont go to school and havent since 8th grade, I have an online general education course I do instead but I dont have friends. The internet where I live is so awful I cant search things sometimes so playing online games with the friends I do have is so difficult and while I honestly love the thought of having a roller, bed desk, crutches, iv like literally anything to fix this I know that for me I am not at that point of needing it and I worry that having any of those could very well make me reliant on them. To me it feels like my head is telling me that I can do things I can learn to surf, I can go to parties and I can have a job or go to normal school if I work hard enough but it feels so cruel because I'm so tired of working for it and still falling short. I dont even know if I can do those things to begin with because I have no clue what is a "i can do this if I keep trying" or "i cant do this and its okay to focus on something else" so my brain just lumps them all into the keep trying category and it sucks and I want to admit I'm just not able to do some stuff but i also am scared of giving up more. I keep having this thought that if I get things to accommodate, if I have it more obvious that I need things for medical reasons, then im just cosplaying someone worse off than me. PoTS is such a stupid thing because its not that serious, it wasnt supposed to be this bad and it shouldnt be affecting my life so much. If anything I should be outgrowing the symptoms and trying to recondition myself right now instead of wondering if its okay for me to just accept it. My grandmother who literally has her spine healing bone into spikes from arthritis still refuses mobility aids because she can push through it and I carry so much shame because why the hell arent I doing the same thing when I'm not suffering? I think something thats very hard for people like me who cant get support via medical things because its just not going to help besides monitoring is that when we think sick or disabled theres usually things needed to keep it under control but this isnt something that can be controlled more than simple changes like gagging down a tablespoon of salt and compression socks, if they dont work than nothing can be done and its not dire so I dont need doctors or hospital visits because I'm not injured and they cant do anything. I just wish it was acceptable to give in and say "yep nothing working im done trying so now I need to get used to disability being apart of my life more obviously to the outside world and no i dont feel guilty about taking a seat when theres a 50 year old standing on the train" im scared to not be sustainable on my own but I already wonder if it was always the case but i also feel like maybe im just a spoiled brat not wanting to do what i dont want to. Sorry for this being so long, I felt like without some context itd be like tricking people im really disabled when like im not and im pretty sure I just dont want to put work in to snything like I cant be bothered even cleaning half the time when thats literally the bare minimum people my age have to do. I cant tell if im actually doing badly as what my friends say (told me she wouldnt want to stand again after i told her about a bad fainting episode that scared me so bad about the unreliability of my body) or if they dont have the full context and assume its worse than it is.

Okay so this monitor only has one hdmi port and no usb or usbc port just a vga and dvi and then like two others for headset and mouse. I want to stream my switch so is it possible to have an hdmi switch (not Nintendo) thing plug in the dock of the nintendo switch to the capture card and then have the capture card and computer into the hdmi switch to have them connected to my monitor so I can still stream on twitch while knowing what im doing on the Nintendo switch? Would all the inputs like audio and video work for the stream?