I suddenly remembered a memory that I wasn't supposed to remember?
Okay, I am freaking out. I was watching Dr strange and then talking about reality and consciousness and my childhood to ChatGPT (I'm sry). I was trying to make it understand there exists things beyond our knowledge (basically tryna tell it magic is real) and to give an example, i told it a story of my childhood. A memory probably I wasn't supposed to remember? I'm mindfked right now.
A girl who I knew died came back to my life 8yrs later and died again on the same day?
when I was in class 1 (2010), we had this classmate, a girl who was very bubbly and popular. And i remember her very clearly because she hated me and she was the monitor and she would write my name up for no reason because of which i would sit alone in the last benches. One day we were told, like an announcement over the school microphone that she had passed away (13th April, 2010) due to an illness and we have write cards for her as she was christian, her mother requested us to write sweet things so they can bury the cards with her.
Eventually we grew out of it. She never again came back to the school. Fast forward to class 9 (2018), everything was going great. In my English coaching, a new girl joined. IT WAS THAT EXACT GIRL???? and I was shocked. Like beyond shocked. Did her mother lie to the school? I asked my classmates with her name and pic but none of them remembered a single thing. In their memories, that girl never existed and nobody died in class 1 (I asked 20 out of the 27 students that were in the class). And she was.... different? She wasn't the bubbly girl i knew, she barely talked. I remembered yelling "aren't you [her name]?" before she could introduce herself. And she was surprised too, she didn't remember me either. Now, how do I know it's the same girl? Because her birthday was literally the day before mine. We had an argument because she was flexing that she was older. So i remembered very clearly, if she really never was in my school, i shouldn't have known. I told my friend, and he said, do something to confirm it. I told me friend "if she was never in our school, I have no way of knowing her bday, right? Her bday is 3th August". Then I asked the girl when is ur bday, and she said 3rd August. My friend was shocked. I genuinely had no idea what was going on.
Now, when we were writing the cards for her, I was crying very much. Our class way too spacious so we had one teacher in the back of the class, and one teacher teaching infront. The teacher was crying too because obviously everyone loved her. But since I was crying real bad, she wrote me a card saying "[her name] loves you and wants you to not cry" with the date of card writing. Fast forward to 2018, I now study in a coaching of that same teacher. And I asked her if she remembers that girl, whether anyone died and if she remembers the card writing. She says neither of them happened and that I am messing with her. So I run back home and in my old cards i find that exact card that she wrote. It had her name and the date.
So not only did she come back from the world of dead, everyone collectively forgot about her? Now during that exact same time, I was having relationship issues, so I was more interested about other girls than her (this is what I remember happened but i genuinely have no recollection why I stopped digging? Because I am the type to keep on digging and I was never the type to chase girls?). Anyways, we pass class 9 and now we're class 10. During this time, she had missed classes but yeah, she had enough attendance (yes our coaching took attendance) to be remembered. Our classes started in January. During one of our classes in April, her mother came during the class to tell the teacher that "she" has passed away. And it was 13th April as well. And I still don't know what happened but apparently after her death, her mother was admitted to a mental hospital as she completely lost it to grief.
my mind has started overthinking, I can't sleep. Maybe they were twins? Identical twins? One studied with us, the other didn't? And maybe the one I knew genuinely died and her mother couldn't accept it so she forced that identity to the other surviving twin which will explain why she had the same bday, no memory of me and a different personality. But it still doesn't explain how nobody remembered the death of her. And when I say nobody, I mean nobody. I asked 20 people of that 27 students that were in the class and a teacher as well. I have researched a lot, you have no idea. My brain is going blub blub, my head hurts
After I remembered today, this entire thing, I texted 3 of my friends who remembered the 2019 incident (her death) told me they remember so atleast now I'm not alone. And yes, her mother is still getting treated.