Still searching for a games that truly depicts psychosis
Hello id like to start off giving some context to why im seeking specific choice.
I have always struggled mentally and that comes to your usual thoughts of what someone like that might be, self harm, smashing objects and overall damaging belongings looking for a relief, confusion, heavy drug abuse, questionable life choices and etc, therefore ive always been fascinated by the human mind seeking to understand myself and others, with cry of fear truly awakening that love with the theme of psychosis and alteration of perception because i finally had found something i somewhat related to.
(never experienced a full blown psychosis with the closest experience having a drug induced psychosis that i seeked on purpose).
Now i will give a few examples of games features i wished to see and what i felt on the peak of my mental struggle
Games features:
- The twisted level design of cry of fear such as the forest level, Simon's apartment and final level that leads to the endings (my fav game and best example of psychosis imo yet)
- the design and story of the few pictures used in the original postal
- silent hill of course with its amazing mental depiction of someones mind
(Not remembering any more examples for now, ill edit later)
Things i have experienced while in my peak struggle:
(Most of these are only understandable to me and others that have experienced the same therefore EXTREMELY hard to translate into a game visually so only use these to have a better idea of what to look for)
- delusions of people looking and seeking for me
- visions of dead bodies along intrusive and detailed thoughts of torturing, killing and psychologically draining people who have done me wrong
- heavy drug use
- mental fog (as in having difficulty understanding things around me and memories seeming like a blur of objects and people)
- hallucinations
- extreme lack of hygiene
- self harm
- absolute disgust of food
- insomnia
(Among others that ill add later bc i don't remember right now)
DISCLAIMER - Im already much better and am extremely happy seeing my progress although i still feel like im not over that phase of my life as i still struggle with some of the stuff above. I am in therapy and properly medicated which definitely calms my thoughts of harming myself and others.
Thank you for reading all of this, ill be active a lot in this post bc ive been looking fo something like this for years.