u/dream_high_1003

Honestly I'm tired of everything eventhough I have all basic facilities in life . I graduated in 2025 , during my college days I was living in hostel with 3 roommates and these people didn't let me sleep peacefully .They keep alarm early in the morning and don't wake up until it rings for half an hour, I had to tell them frequently to not disturb atleast on holidays but they back bitch that I am non adjustable roommate, so here my sleep scheduled had been screwed but still I love hostel days since nobody questioned why did you wake up late or why did you take a bath at night

I used feel free to eat whenever and whatever I want .The only thing that weighed on me was that I never travelled alone in my entire life ,my parents are over protective . Whenever there is a vacation my father comes to pick me up in college and then we travel back to home and mind you it takes 7-8 hours of journey one way to reach my home .My so called roommates used to talk behind my back like I am treated like a small child whose father comes and picks up .I know it may sound like my parents love me lot but I never travelled with friends ,I didn't experience this in my life .

Now whenever I think of travelling to another city I feel anxious and I think I will never be able to communicate or board a flight or train .

Now I work in MNC and commute from my home ,it takes 1 and half hour for one way to reach my office .In office I am treated as a nobody and they don't even acknowledge me in meetings.I am usually quiet person but I do speak whenever there is any work related issue but my manager only acknowledges my colleague,we both do the same kind of work but he is always given priority to take up the initiative of speaking up in the meetings just because he has a loud voice and is friendly with the manager .My manager brings up his name in every meeting eventhough there is no need of it ,he tells him to look over the other issues and doesn't acknowledge me at all .So finally I have no work friends and I am always alone in office .

After all these I come home and I have to cut vegetables and do the laundary too .My job at home is to cut all required vegetables in the morning and night and do the laundary and do other random things which my Mom constantly tells me to do .She doesn't like if I use my phone for 5 min ,she always brings up some work .

In weekends I just want to lay in bed but my neighbours need to wash the utensils for 1 hour.Yes they wash the utensils for more than an hour and whose sounds could be heard through the entire appartment .The morning of my weekend and some of the weekdays is ruined due to this and after this I want to watch Netflix , for this too my Mom nags at me ,she tells me to upskill or do a course .I don't go out in weekends since I have no friends here and my parents always make a comment that I am a loner , I don't have friends and I rot at home .I want to take a nap in the evening sometimes after I get tired but my parents say that a person should not sleep in the evening its not a good habit, and due to this I look like zombie who needs to sleep but cannot sleep until it's night time .

And at night I am wide awake ,I don't know why I have tried all sorts to sleep early like listening to music, counting sheeps in my dreams ,meditating before sleeping but none of them works .

And due to all these ,now a days I am constantly frustrated and and I think I have mentally exhausted myself , I don't have hobbies.I consider anything other than work as a pain to do so I have not tried any hobbies .

I am below 25 yrs and these are supposed to be my best years and prime youth yet here I am living like a 50 yr old who do not have friends nor boyfriend.I don't know what to with my life since I have always done the work which my elders tell me to do , they brought me up by telling me that as long as you do what others say then you are a good girl and obedient girl. I don't have any creative side to think of any interesting work .