u/em_fal

I don’t really understand why people are so gutted when a guest wears white to a wedding. All four of my bridesmaid’s dresses were the same off-white color as mine and I wouldn’t have been offended if a guest wore white either. It’s my wedding, I sent out the invites and walked down the aisle. Obviously I’m the bride. I just don’t care what color/ shade women wear to weddings. A little insight as to why this is so bothersome (without being nasty) would help.

I guess the title tells the story. This is DISGUSTING. Bought in a bundle and I didn’t inspect every piece until I went to put it on. (My fault and won’t make the mistake again). But really, come on, it’s just disrespectful to buyers and may be part of the reason as to why PM is struggling as of late. CLEAN YOUR SH*T if you’ve leaked all over it.

So, I had treatment this afternoon (my fourth) and all has been going so well, until today: my birthday. I went in feeling fine, the same expectations, nothing of note had happened beside it being my birthday. I’ve had exceptionally positive experiences and even though I’m new to the drug, I figured it would go as the previous three treatments had.

It did not.

I can only explain it as a complete existential meltdown based on the fact that I couldn’t stop fixating on the fact that I was a year older, closer to death, etc. Nothing calmed me. It was such a negative experience that I’m almost afraid to go back. Usually I can easily push bad things away quickly (during a session) but this was like a death spiral choke hold on my emotions. I’m not being hyperbolic.

I need to continue, right? I’ve really felt that it’s helped more than anything I’ve tried in years and I’m just a few sessions in but I’m afraid now.

Anyone have a similar experience or advice? Do you think it was just situational given the date? I don’t want to stop but it was brutal.