Feeling sad after egg retreival
Yesterday we had our second egg retrieval. The first resulted in 6 eggs/6 mature/ 5 fertilized but all arrested on day 3.
This cycle has been rough for me with a lot of negative side effects to the fertility meds, but I was feeling hopeful because I had a lot more follicles (16 in total this time compared to 7 last time). However we only ended up with 5 eggs this time and just found out that 4 were mature and only 2 fertilized. I'm just feeling really defeated and realizing that we are likely to have to do many cycles and might not ever even get embryos let alone a pregnancy. For context I'm 36 with amh of 7 pmol or 1 ng/ml, and my partner has low count, motility and morphology.
I told my fertility doctor that I was happy to keep trying for as long as she will let us, but she said that she won't keep trying over and over if it's clear that it's not working. I know that a lot of people have been in the same situation but I'm just really sad today. I could really use some positive stories or advice from people who have been in a similar situation 🧡