u/espresso-luvr

I feel like I see a lot of people talking about how they remember when they “suddenly gained consciousness” as an infant, but honestly I can’t quite recall the first time I did. I was conscious at least since the age of 3- if not younger- and I remember a lot from that age. Just wondering if I’m not alone on this?

My mental health is so bad I can’t handle being alone or in silence. All my friends live 40-50 minutes away from me and I got 2 tickets and my fucking car taken away from me. I deserve the punishment I guess cuz it’s my own fault for getting tickets but it’s genuinely so bad on my mental health that I can’t see those people. I get so suicidal when I’m alone cuz I have all that damn time to think abt everything. I feel so secluded and alone. Anytime I would open up I would be told abt how my life is so good and I shouldn’t feel like this and it’s so fucking annoying. Genuinely if I told them everything that went on in my head I’d probably be put somewhere. The only reason I don’t end it is bc ppl depend on me and I can’t bring myself to let them be alone. I will suffer if it means keeping others happy.
My mind’s all over the place and I can’t keep a coherent thought rn sorry

HI! I’m 17f and I wanna be a performer so so bad. I’m obsessed w dancing and it’s like my one passion. I’d love love love to be a music artist as well but I lack creativity. I’m mostly scared cuz i feel like im not good/talented enough nor pretty enough.

I honestly just need motivation and some people to talk to about this cuz im lowk embarrassed

I’m 17f and I’ve had this reoccurring thought since I was younger of wishing I was born a guy. I’m unsure what exactly this thought really is. I think I like being a girl but again, I’m unsure. I really enjoy being perceived as more “masculine” for a lack of better words.

I have 2 older brothers and I always wanted to be cool like them and fit in yk so I believe it stems from that but still.. I’m wondering if I have a bigger issue at hand here.

Edit

I’m prolly gonna edit this a lot cuz I’m trying to really get my thoughts together.. also this is getting more interaction than I intended so I’m gonna add more context.

I always felt this jealousy of my brother. Like genuinely wishing I WAS him.

I was also raised similar to how my brothers were-be tough, don’t cry, etc etc so I know that kind of plays into why I feel like this.

W my girlfriends I usually play as the more protective and almost boyfriend-like role. I don’t like them like that, I just feel more comfortable being that role, if that means anything.