u/fayzee98_____

I seriously don’t know what to do, how to react, how to live.

I was pregnant at the same time as my sister in law. My baby died, she gave birth shortly after.

Now my other sister in law is pregnant.

I just can’t.

I know I’m being dramatic and bitchy, but the actual thought of them deciding after 5 years they suddenly want a baby after my baby dies, I just can’t help but be angry. For context, she has two other kids. Now obviously I don’t think they planned to have a baby after mine died but the timing is just so so messed up. After five years you decide you want a third? And it happens to be a few months after I lost my baby.

They also know I’ve been having a really hard time. Why the fuck tell me when it’s still so early. Like they couldn’t wait to share the news. And the way they told me as well. They told my husband to tell me. Not even approach me or care about how I feel. I have friends at work that I don’t even talk to on a daily basis have more empathy than them.

I’m seriously just so fricken upset and my husband and basically no one in my life understands - hell I don’t even understand, I’m just so so upset and a little angry and just frustrated and so so hurt, and I just hate this feeling.

I hate this so so much and I just hate everyone and I hate everything and I just want to give up

I have somewhat come to terms with what’s happened. I lost my baby girl at 24weeks. First baby.

But for some reason, I fucking hate everyone.

I hate my husband, my family, my in-laws, everyone at work, just everyone and everything.

I feel like no one understands what I’m going through and they are being very insensitive. I can see that they are trying but they are saying and doing the wrong things.

I am heartbroken, constantly crying, anxious, vomiting, and although I have a lot of people around me, I feel so so so fucking alone. I’m genuinely trying but I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve tried therapy sessions, I’ve tried bettering myself, I’ve tried everything it feels like.

It doesn’t help that my SIL gave birth a month after my baby’s death and now it genuinely feels like everyone has forgotten about my baby. They are over doing it with the pics and vids in the group chat and just overdoing everything in general and it’s very very hard to feel like it’s not being rubbed in my face.

I want to go to a secluded place in the middle of nowhere, away from everyone, especially my husband but it’s not an option.

What can I do? Does anyone have any tips to stop hating everyone and move on with my life?

I am really struggling with the lost of my little baby. She passed in my stomach due to a coiled umbilical cord (they think), and I had to give birth to her at 6 months.

She was my first baby.

I can’t believe she is not here and she is gone and I will never see her again.

I feel like I didn’t spend enough time with her with she was with me before we buried her.

I really, really miss her.

It has been a little over four months.

I have not seen her in my dreams yet. I go to the cemetery every few days to talk to her and feel close to her.

Does anyone have any supernatural or crazy story about seeing their baby again - I just need something to hold onto even if it’s crazy, just a little sliver of hope that I may see her again.

The thought of living out the rest of my life without seeing her again actually drives me crazy.

I am speaking to a psychologist but I don’t think it’s enough. I want to see her again even if just for a few moments to hug and kiss her.

I am really struggling with the lost of my little baby. She passed in my stomach due to a coiled umbilical cord (they think), and I had to give birth to her at 6 months.

She was my first baby.

I can’t believe she is not here and she is gone and I will never see her again.

I feel like I didn’t spend enough time with her with she was with me before we buried her.

I really, really miss her.

It has been a little over four months.

I have not seen her in my dreams yet. I go to the cemetery every few days to talk to her and feel close to her.

Does anyone have any supernatural or crazy story about seeing their baby again - I just need something to hold onto even if it’s crazy, just a little sliver of hope that I may see her again.

The thought of living out the rest of my life without seeing her again actually drives me crazy.

I am speaking to a psychologist but I don’t think it’s enough. I want to see her again even if just for a few moments to hug and kiss her.

I am really struggling with the lost of my little baby. She passed in my stomach due to a coiled umbilical cord (they think), and I had to give birth to her at 6 months.

She was my first baby.

I can’t believe she is not here and she is gone and I will never see her again.

I feel like I didn’t spend enough time with her with she was with me before we buried her.

I really, really miss her.

It has been a little over four months.

I have not seen her in my dreams yet. I go to the cemetery every few days to talk to her and feel close to her.

Does anyone have any supernatural or crazy story about seeing their baby again - I just need something to hold onto even if it’s crazy, just a little sliver of hope that I may see her again.

The thought of living out the rest of my life without seeing her again actually drives me crazy.

I am speaking to a psychologist but I don’t think it’s enough. I want to see her again even if just for a few moments to hug and kiss her.