u/ferrets2020

I got my ADHD diagnosis and got prescribed concerta xl 18mg. When i first took it for the first few hours i felt very awake, kinda like with nicotine, and had tunnel vision, and my internal dialogue was much faster and didn't stop (just like when I'm not on meds). Then after 4 hours it completely wore off.

The next few days i felt almost nothing, maybe i felt a bit different, kinda out of it, like my focus is worse.

Then I skipped a day and omg i felt so tired and felt groggy all day, i was walking outside with my eyes closed.

Today i took it again and i feel like when you're drunk or extremely tired and if you tried doing a maths/logic problem, you wouldn't be able to do it. My mind feels very clouded. My eyes are unfocused and I'm just staring at a wall.

Coffee never worked for me except make me sleepy and make my heart pound.

When i tried nicotine for the first time years ago it was like a lightbulb came on. I felt like all my terrible terrible brain fog and fatigue vanished and i could finally THINK clearly for the first time. I felt super calm bc usually im anxious 24/7. It just felt perfect and i knew i prob had adhd but i kinda kept denying it. I went to get a private autism diagnosis and the doctor did an adhd assessment for free bc he knew i wouldn't get one, i kept being like wdym i dont have adhd i have autism. Maybe he knew i would never get medicated if he wouldn't diagnose me. After a few months I've realised i totally have adhd, and quite a bad case. Very severe procrastination and brain fog and internal dialogue that legit does not stop for 1 second during the day.

I thought methylphenidate would feel like nicotine, and it felt like that on the first day, but since then I've felt the opposite. My face also has a lot of blood in it.

I'm thinking of taking a double dose bc my doc is private and an appointment is expensive, he'll prob increase my dose anyways before trying vyvanse.

I'm from the UK, we don't do Adderal.