u/flamecarier — reddlx

A week later, still holding on to the edge and pardon me for reaching out again: (

Perhaps to some people, this is the second time seeing this thought of mine, or maybe it just sounds familiar. To answer that: yes, this is coming from the same person.

I am stuck at the bottom. I don't know whether I should be angry at myself or pity myself more. What I can tell you for sure is that I barely recognize who 1 am anymore. I doubt every decision I have to make, and worst of all, I doubt my own skills and what I'm capable of doing.

I want to shout out loud that I have tried. I have tried to get back on my feet, I have tried to speak the truth, I have tried to overcome my fear, and I have tried to be strong. But what result did I get from all of that effort?

I honestly don't know the answer anymore.
Before I ask for anything in this thread, my honest thought is that I feel deeply ashamed. I never thought it would come to the point where I am practically begging just to stay alive, but it hit me that this might be the only way to survive in and it is better than turning to something wrong.

I used to see a meme of a wounded hand bleeding because it was holding tightly to a rope, with the quote: "Sometimes holding on does more damage than letting go." But it made me think: what if a real person has fallen off a cliff, and holding onto that painful rope is their only way to survive?

So here I am. Through the pain, shame, humiliation, and this mental breakdown, I am trying to loudly ask for a hand. I know that most of the time, posts like this just end up like wind coming and going, but I am still trying to believe that someone might actually lend a hand.

I tried seeking support from people I used to call friends and relatives. Reality showed me that at my lowest point, when I swallowed my pride just to ask for RM 10 so I wouldn't starve, they turned their faces away and ignored my messages. They used to show me an "angel face" with motivational words, but now they show this side. So I choose to ask here instead. If I have to feel ashamed, at least I hope this feeling can connect me with someone who can actually help me get through this, rather than just ending up as a gossip screenshot. In truth, some of my current problems started because I tried seeking help from the very people I thought were my support system.

If I share my Touch 'n Go QR here, would you help me get some food to stay afloat? I am not asking for a huge amount, whatever you feel comfortable sharing is enough. Even RM 1 can buy me a piece of bread, and that is enough for me to survive today.

I truly mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say I want to repay you someday when I get back on my feet. If you choose to scan the QR, please leave your contact number or message so I can keep a note of it.

To get this off my chest: I hope you don't mind seeing a similar post from me about this. My goal is that the next post will be about me successfully sustaining myself. If you know of any part-time work or side jobs I could do while I try to restart my life, I would deeply appreciate that as well.

I know there are many scams out there, and the last thing I want is to make anyone feel like their kindness is being misused. To keep everything transparent and honest, I am personally tracking every single contribution I receive, no matter how small. If you do choose to help, please leave your contact info or message me privately, I want to be able to send you proof, thank you directly, and repay you as soon as I get back on my feet.

To get this off my chest: I hope you don’t mind seeing a similar post from me. My true hope is that my next post will be about me successfully sustaining myself. If you have any part-time work or small tasks I can do to earn my keep while restarting my life, please reach out. Thank you so much for reading.

u/flamecarier — 9 days ago

▲ 15 r/OffMyChestMY

As an Asian male, I was raised to "be strong." After suffering sexual harassment 4 times, corporate betrayal, and losing my support system, I feel broken. #help

Growing up as an Asian male, I was conditioned by society and family expectations to always be strong, quiet, and resilient. Men aren't supposed to be vulnerable, and we're certainly not raised to believe we can be victims of sexual harassment.
When I was harassed for the first time, I completely froze. I was so lost, confused, and overwhelmed by the fear of stigma that I couldn't even process what had happened. I kept it to myself, telling myself to just move on and be tough.
Then it happened a second time. And a third. Each time, the shame grew, but the cultural pressure to stay silent kept me trapped.
By the fourth time, I couldn't take it anymore. I decided to finally speak out, fight back, and report it. But instead of receiving support, my worst nightmare came true, my employer shut me down completely, forced an NDA on me, and buried the entire issue.
When I reached out to those around me, my colleagues, my friends, and the company, I was completely abandoned when I needed help the most. Yet, the moment I reached my absolute breaking point and tried to end my life, suddenly everyone wanted to step in and play the hero. It feels deeply hypocritical and exhausting. People are quick to perform as "angels" when death is imminent, but remain completely silent while you are actively being crushed by trauma and isolation.
Now, I feel entirely drained, betrayed, and hopeless. The weight of cultural expectations, repeated trauma, corporate retaliation, and losing my social circle has pushed me to my limit. I am left with no place to stay, no money for food, a shattered sense of identity, and an overwhelming burden of shame that I know I shouldn't have to carry.

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u/flamecarier — 1 month ago

▲ 11 r/kereta

What to do if car repossessed due to default payment bank/hire purchase?

Hi everyone, I'm not sure if I'm asking in the right place, but I need some advice. My car was recently towed and repossessed by the bank after I defaulted on my payments. I was not there in person when it was towed, so many of my personal items are still inside the car. What can or must I do right now to retrieve them?

Also, what should my next steps be? Has anyone experienced this before, and what possible outcomes or options might I have?

For context, my default happened because my main account was frozen due to an ongoing court dispute.
Is it possible to seek leniency from the bank-such as requesting a grace period or a restructured payment plan with additional interest given my situation?

Thank you so much!

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u/flamecarier — 1 month ago

▲ 3 r/macbookrepair

Help:( MacBook Air M1 Can’t Turn On

Hi everyone, I fell asleep on the couch while browsing with my MacBook Air M1 in my lap. The next morning, I woke up and found that the screen was off. I thought the battery was empty, so I plugged it into the power cord. However, after an hour, I still couldn't turn it on by any means, I even tried increasing the brightness in case it was too dim, but nothing worked. Meanwhile, the Type-C power cord is fine, as I tested it with my iPhone. Does anybody know what might have happened, and what the worst-case scenario is? Thanks!

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u/flamecarier — 2 months ago