u/garicnamnam

In a bullet point nutshell
-i told my best friend i had a crush on guy
-best friend is best friend with guy
-best friend told guy that we would look cute/match and that im not the type of girl to “reject or “string” a guy after dates/showing interest”
-we went on 2 dates and have been talking for months/calling for 5h
-1st date he came to buy summer beach house/travelled for 8h total/brought flowers
-2nd date we went shopping (for him), ate dinner (he payed)—had a good time (i was lowkey mean tho)
-i realized i dont like him

I don’t want to hurt him—i like him as a person but not romantically—he has been hurt by multiple girls for being “too nice”—i wish to like him but I can’t and i feel so horrible and i want to be friends and i dont want him to hate me and I don’t want our overall friendgroup to hate us

what do I do??

If you see my initial posts on my Reddit, you (hopefully) would notice that I had utter faith in God, I had my arguments on why I believed in a God and specifically, why I believed in Jesus Christ as my God.

However, now, I don’t believe in anything, I’m not sure why. I’d love to believe that there is a higher being but it is difficult to believe so. I’m not sure why. I truly loved God, more than I did love myself, and now, I don’t believe.

If I were ever to believe again, I would have to have some sort of evidence of existence of the fact that Jesus Christ of Nazareth was a higher being, whom was on earth to save us from our sins.

I don’t believe that Christianity is bad in any sort of way, however, I believe that is to serve us some sort of moral compass like philosophy—on how to live a good life, a life of virtue, ext…

In conclusion, now I believe that our earth came to be by the simple fact of it collapsing with Thea, evolution ext… and religions such as Christianity, or any other, serves as to know how to live a “good life” like philosophy.