u/genuinelycracked

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Ik all the stuff about iiser pune closing so fast and others and i really sympathize with you people if any ​​help needed i am there

But can you people tell how much marks did people this year got to get above 4k rank?

pls read it full! (Idk why this nsfw tag is automatically added btw)

I am currently in a college under calcutta university it's a pretty good one but i am there with bsc botany, i hate botany ngl but I don't have any chance to take a full drop and prep for other exams and there's a reason for it

Last year in 2025 i passed out schl got 81% and thought I would prep for neet, last year i got 136/720 in neet and this year i got 161/720, obviously you may think what dumb idiot would get these less marks after even a drop year well

I DIDN'T STUDY

I completely wasted my time, listening to music with maladaptive daydreaming (a huge problem) and when i don't do that I doom scroll, and before writing this post i was doing that only

I was in a pretty crap school in my 11th and 12th so was heavily burnt out, frustrated and demotivated and cause of that i didn't study at all

With all these i realised i don't wanna do neet cause seeing the situation of doctors i felt a bit of sympathy they hardly get time for themselves

I wanna give iat next(my last chance) to get iiser cause i really wanna do a good phd from abroad but i am feeling really hopeless i have more than 95% of syllabus left and in a college i want to be a partial dropper try for iat but i feel i would fail so my mind is like "let's not try only" I think i have adhd idk

(Will give backups too like wbjee, wbjee jenpas, cuet)

Family situation (DO READ IT) :- father is the only earner, earns 22k a month we live in the suburbs of Kolkata, my mom is very narcissistic one of her famous statements that she says is "there is no girl better me, i am the one because of whom this family is running" While pointing towards herself, my father is a big coward very fragile ego he wants me educated but just for his prestige i got called an "educated fool" Cause i defended and counter-argued one of his statements which was "educated women are filthy" He even said he can buy a women a women three times and sell them if he wants to(he said this while refrencing towards a women in our neighborhood who is a teacher and works very hard and earns more than my father) , both mom and dad are very abusive once my brother destroyed a squishy of mine when i said i liked that why did he destroy it my father said "focus on your studies, don't be ridiculous with those hobbies" And when i argued back(i got really angry that day and said some hurtful things) he beat me up in the back, pushed me on the floor and kicked in the nose.

Now a normal person would try to get away from these so they would prep hard but in my case my mom dad turn very sweet my dad sends me motivational study materials which soothes me and i forget their abusive nature and think maybe i am at fault and i should stay at home, atp I AM SO BURNT OUT I DON'T FEEL ANYTHING I AM JUST BLANK THE ONLY THING I DO IS CRY AND DOOMSCROLL, I DON'T FEEL ANYTHING SO MY PARENTS ABUSING MR FEELS VERY NORMAL TO ME NOW and i don't study because of this idk i am so confused pls help me out

I AM ADDICTED TO MY PHONE, i take online lecs and i need my tab but i can't leave my phone which will be a curse for me

i) Can y'all pls help me?

Pls guide me on what to do and how to deal with these type of situations

ii) What should i do next prep for entrance(just 9 months left with heavy syllabus) or just lose hopes and stay under CU?

iii) how to be more disciplined?

Because if i don't now i will regret in the future

Tldr:- parents are abusive, i don't feel anything because of constant depression burn out frustration, wanna change my life but feel so lost, father is a MISOGYNISTIC BASTARD

pls read it full!

I am currently in a college under calcutta university it's a pretty good one but i am there with bsc botany, i hate botany ngl but I don't have any chance to take a full drop and prep for other exams and there's a reason for it

Last year in 2025 i passed out schl got 81% and thought I would prep for neet, last year i got 136/720 in neet and this year i got 161/720, obviously you may think what dumb idiot would get these less marks after even a drop year well

I DIDN'T STUDY

I completely wasted my time, listening to music with maladaptive daydreaming (a huge problem) and when i don't do that I doom scroll, and before writing this post i was doing that only

I was in a pretty crap school in my 11th and 12th so was heavily burnt out, frustrated and demotivated and cause of that i didn't study at all

With all these i realised i don't wanna do neet cause seeing the situation of doctors i felt a bit of sympathy they hardly get time for themselves

I wanna give iat next(my last chance) to get iiser cause i really wanna do a good phd from abroad but i am feeling really hopeless i have more than 95% of syllabus left and in a college i want to be a partial dropper try for iat but i feel i would fail so my mind is like "let's not try only" I think i have adhd idk

(Will give backups too like wbjee, wbjee jenpas, cuet)

Family situation (DO READ IT) :- father is the only earner, earns 22k a month we live in the suburbs of Kolkata, my mom is very narcissistic one of her famous statements that she says is "there is no girl better me, i am the one because of whom this family is running" While pointing towards herself, my father is a big coward very fragile ego he wants me educated but just for his prestige i got called an "educated fool" Cause i defended and counter-argued one of his statements which was "educated women are filthy" He even said he can buy a women a women three times and sell them if he wants to(he said this while refrencing towards a women in our neighborhood who is a teacher and works very hard and earns more than my father) , both mom and dad are very abusive once my brother destroyed a squishy of mine when i said i liked that why did he destroy it my father said "focus on your studies, don't be ridiculous with those hobbies" And when i argued back(i got really angry that day and said some hurtful things) he beat me up in the back, pushed me on the floor and kicked in the nose.

Now a normal person would try to get away from these so they would prep hard but in my case my mom dad turn very sweet my dad sends me motivational study materials which soothes me and i forget their abusive nature and think maybe i am at fault and i should stay at home, atp I AM SO BURNT OUT I DON'T FEEL ANYTHING I AM JUST BLANK THE ONLY THING I DO IS CRY AND DOOMSCROLL, I DON'T FEEL ANYTHING SO MY PARENTS ABUSING MR FEELS VERY NORMAL TO ME NOW and i don't study because of this idk i am so confused pls help me out

I AM ADDICTED TO MY PHONE, i take online lecs and i need my tab but i can't leave my phone which will be a curse for me

i) Can y'all pls help me?

Pls guide me on what to do and how to deal with these type of situations

ii) What should i do next prep for entrance(just 9 months left with heavy syllabus) or just lose hopes and stay under CU?

iii) how to be more disciplined?

Because if i don't now i will regret in the future

Tldr:- parents are abusive, i don't feel anything because of constant depression burn out frustration, wanna change my life but feel so lost, father is a MISOGYNISTIC BASTARD

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So this is my 2nd drop honestly i completely wasted my first drop and got really less marks in neet and i have like more than 90% syllabus till now my father noticed one thing that i Procastinate a lot and because i couldn't complete my syllabus i couldn't get good marks so he admitted into aakash as one of my friends did too and it was a very impulsive action. Now the aakash centre is like 1hr 10 mins away from my home and i reach there with the help of train and walking,today was my first day so i attended my classes and to say the least it was worst, like the teachers were teaching out of syllabus material and saying not to do ratta but at the same time they were teaching in a way that promotes rote learning and also the money i still have to pay 97k over there as i only took admission with 20k but yeah before i have to do the rest of the payment i just wanna ask you people what you would have done. Also because the distance is so much and i travel via local (crowdy) trains i noticed that today when i came back home i slept for like 4 hrs in the evening the time in which i should have studied.

Btw classes happens at aakash for droppers is from 9:30 am to 3:10pm

And now it's going to get even more confusing so before taking aakash Or my neet results i thought i would just take a bsc admission​ in a college and will continue neet/iat prep simultaneously like in a partial drop year,the college will be local so there will be no pressure of attendance and all from it,mind you i took admission in this college before neet results came out or aakash admissions this year as my father also thought wasting one more year is not worth it (my father didn't knew i would get that bad marks but when he got to know he wanted to send me to aakash even though i was going to college but still i was procrastinating, last 1 week of college days i didn't study at all tho college days were less like legit 2 days a week)

So just tell me what to do please should i continue with with aakash? Tho i have to come back home and learn the same material online and then do self study? But as i said they take a lot of time and i get tired quickly to a point i can't even properly write

Or

Should i just continue with my partial drop in my college with my iat prep?

BTW IAT IS MY MAIN TARGET AND MY FIRST CHOICE I DON'T GIVE A FK ABOUT NEET JUST GIVING IT FOR MY PARENTS

Pls read it full tldr wouldn't explain most of the things.

So this is my 2nd drop honestly i completely wasted my first drop and got really less marks in neet and i have like more than 90% syllabus till now my father noticed one thing that i Procastinate a lot and because i couldn't complete my syllabus i couldn't get good marks so he admitted into aakash as one of my friends did too and it was a very impulsive action. Now the aakash centre is like 1hr 10 mins away from my home and i reach there with the help of train and walking,today was my first day so i attended my classes and to say the least it was worst, like the teachers were teaching out of syllabus material and saying not to do ratta but at the same time they were teaching in a way that promotes rote learning and also the money i still have to pay 97k over there as i only took admission with 20k but yeah before i have to do the rest of the payment i just wanna ask you people what you would have done. Also because the distance is so much and i travel via local (crowdy) trains i noticed that today when i came back home i slept for like 4 hrs in the evening the time in which i should have studied.

Btw classes happens at aakash for droppers is from 9:30 am to 3:10pm

And now it's going to get even more confusing so before taking aakash Or my neet results i thought i would just take a bsc admission​ in a college and will continue neet prep simultaneously like in a partial drop year,the college will be local so there will be no pressure of attendance and all from it,mind you i took admission in this college before neet results came out or aakash admissions this year as my father also thought wasting one more year is not worth it (my father didn't knew i would get that bad marks but when he got to know he wanted to send me to aakash even though i was going to college but still i was procrastinating, last 1 week of college days i didn't study at all tho college days were less like legit 2 days a week)

So just tell me what to do please should i continue with with aakash? Tho i have to come back home and learn the same material online and then do self study? But as i said they take a lot of time and i get tired quickly to a point i can't even properly write

Or

Should i just continue with my partial drop in my college with my neet prep?

Pls read it full tldr wouldn't explain most of the things.

Profs were good but boy did they give a wholeass paragraph explanation for why botany should be kept and how it is important🙂

But whatever they are pretty cool

Same!

Edit:- is there no seniors from those depts!? 😭 are they in too much pressure? Loll😂😭

Amader bollo physical verification hobe 27th June - 4th July kintu akhono kono time,center ba ar kothai hobe ota janina.

Ami asutosh ar kotha bolchi

Last year I passed from a shitty cbse schl took a drop for neet but my dumbahh didn't collect the TC for 1 whole year now I got ashutosh and I feel like they will need it I AM SUCH A DUMBASS

btw I have my migration certificate from digilocker but still TC and migration certificate are different.😭😭😭😭​

I got ashutosh botany gave for upgradation they told to come for physical verification from 27th to 4th July can anyone tell me, what is the time when I should go to ashutosh it was not mentioned