u/gnabnahc23

23F and 23M (both in the same city i.e. SF, USA)

there's this guy from work.

him and i talk everyday, day and night actually. for the first few months, i liked him and he liked me back. i would flirt quite openly with him and he reciprocated every single time.

he asked me out but that's exactly where things went wrong. as soon as he asked me, "do you wanna go out with me? romantic stylez?" (we're B99 fans), the glass shattered. like literally. i heard the glass shattering sound in my head. i said "no."

then things went back to normal ig? same flirting, same day-to-night and night-to-day talks. then he asked me out again. i said no again. things went back to normal, yes, again.

to be VERY honest, I've loved every single moment of us talking, flirting, everything. i feel the happiest and the most 'me' around him. i don't have to pretend so like something, i don't have to pretend that liking a certain artist is very mainstream, i don't have to pretend to be enjoying the conversation because I genuinely am enjoying the conversation.

i smile and laugh and giggle more with him than anyone else. and he says that he does too.

see I've got no problem with him asking me out, i believe everybody should have the chance to try again till the other person says "don't do this anymore". (at least with me)

but the real problem is that I can live to flirt with him, say stuff like "oh so you're THAT kind of a boyfriend?" and "if you and I were dating, we would've been doing xyz things on Saturdays and going to xyz places for dates" but I can't say yes to him.

i feel that i just like the validation of someone liking me or maybe just for the chase, the thrill of having something like this.

am I toxic? am I weird? am i a red flag? am i Summer from 500 days? what's going on?

bruh [accountancy]

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