u/griffaliff

Call me bitter (strong note, not jealous, kudos to those with this condition who can get things done and make something of it), but I get so tired of seeing people online who make ADHD related content where they seem to have at least an aspect or two of their life in order. The podcasters with nice studios, content creators with lovely homes etc. I stress I'm not jealous, I have a reasonably nice life considering, due to my wife being a saint and helping me, she puts up with a lot from my side.

For me, it's the aspects of adult daily life; trying to keep everything from falling to bits while I continually miss appointments, fall behind at work, forgetting important things and pissing off/upsetting those around me in the process, it's all incredibly difficult to keep on top of. So much of the time my life is just chaos.

It baffles me how these people can consistently make good content or just work on a project, while I languish, surrounded by half baked ideas. It feels unfair to me, but I appreciate ADHD is a spectrum.

This is just a slightly drunken rant I needed to get off my chest, I appreciate there's plenty of ADHD folks out there who are able to be consistent, I'm simply reflecting on the frustrations of my own problems. I suppose I'm reaching out to see if anyone feels the same way. Feel free to down vote this, or challenge what I've said.

I'll go first, I've had two in my arsenal for years -

Hedflux - Music is my Weapon (Far Too Loud Remix)

Colombo & Kultur - Blow Me

They're absolute favourites for me.

I signed up to the wait list for Harrow Health via RTC in November last year, they had the shortest wait of five weeks. I full all the forms out, only to then see a message saying the funding has been pulled and they won't be making any new diagnosis appointments until April at the earliest. I've waited and waited, it's now July, still nothing. I hate this process, it's so frustrating.

I've been absolutely obsessed with music since I was three, I am currently 38; listening to it, constantly exploring new genres, bands / artists, I host / DJ a breakbeat show on a local radio station, I play drums (grade 6) and piano (grade 2), I love learning about music theory, my favourite genre ever is Groove Metal and I also adore DnB. I've attended festivals, raves and gigs all over the UK and Europe and I studied Audio engineering to undergrad level - I even read the PhD papers my tutors were publishing back then.

My wife says I definitely have 'aspie' traits (personally I'm fairly sure I'm Inattentive type and have AuDHD), so when I asked her the other day what she thinks my special interest is, she told me 'well it's music, of course it is!'. I was surprised, as I realised that it certainly is music, I'd just never clocked it within my own behaviour and personality. I always just thought I was a bog standard music fan.

Has anyone else had this? A lifelong special interest that they never considered as such, until someone close to them pointed it out?

I love this genre so I've got a raft of underground tracks to play but with it being a wedding I'd love to throw down some good breakbeat remixes of more popular / known songs. I'll be working between 130 and 137 BPM. Any suggestions are welcome, thanks everyone.