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I’ve been a SAHM for the last 3 years and I’m never in a “good mood” anymore. Everything feels like a chore and I feel like I survive each day in a fog. I’m not necessarily in a bad mood like overtly mad or sad or anything. I just exist. Happiness is fleeting. Too worn out to do anything “extra” than what’s already expected of me. I cook and clean all day I’m not sure how I’m supposed to be chipper and joyous about it??? Even things that are supposed to be fun are just more work. For example, Today we are swimming and BBQing but what that actually breaks down to is.. going to a busy grocery store, prepping food and cleaning my kitchen, wresting my kids to put sunscreen on, taking out and cleaning up all the pool toys, giving kids a post-chlorine bath, doing towel and swim suit laundry, doing bbq dishes. For like maybe 30 minutes in the pool and some burgers.

I’ve been told to take care of myself. Sleep isn’t restorative as I wake up just as tired as I went to bed. Been dealing with some postpartum health issues that don’t help my morale. I feel like this is the hardest job I’ve ever had and also I feel the worst I ever have. I work really hard taking care of my kids, my house, and even myself. I workout everyday and the movement temporarily boosts my mood but it’s temporary. Maybe it feels like 1 concrete action step towards not feeling like a fat slob all the time but I still feel like a fat slob. Bought a cute lounge set last week and within 1 hour of wearing it my kid dribbled a grape popsicle stain down the front of it climbing on me while I was asking him not to.

If I had a magic wand I don’t even know what I would wish for because there’s really nothing wrong except something wrong with me :(

Other moms who have been in this funk… how did you get out of it?

I watched the entire Tanner Horner trial live and then decided to rewatch Wade Wilson’s penalty phase for comparison.

I found Tanner’s team’s penalty phase presentation to be robust and very thorough, almost to the point of ridiculous. We heard from special education teachers from 5th grade, family members, psychologists and psychiatrists specializing is various mental conditions (Autism, FAS, lead poisoning); we even heard from someone who babysat him in 1992 and remembered him eating Pennies. Psychologists testified about how Tanner’s childhood traumas and mental health contributed to his horrific crime. It was almost 2 weeks long! Around $500,000 was spent on expert witnesses alone for Tanner Horner’s capital murder defense case.

By contrast, Wade’s defense team’s effort at sparing his life, based on the testimony presented, seem sparse and flimsy. The only mental health angle that was highlighted as a mitigating factor was brain doctors who assessed potential brain damage from car accidents/concussions. The state had a rebuttal witness for that and that was about it. I was surprised that bipolar mania wasn’t discussed more, or adoption issues. I guess ultimately the defendant has final say, no? I remember Wade being described as uncooperative by a witness who assessed him (I forget if state or defense witness). I learned that the court ruled on a $15,000 Cap on Neuropsychological Evaluations.

Tanner’s sentencing trial felt like throwing spaghetti at a wall to hope something sticks but Wade’s mitigation case appeared half-assed, especially when a life is on the line.

Does it have to do with differences in states (Texas vs. Florida)? Or how different judges rule what is allowed and in the budget during pretrial?

Has anybody watched both and have thoughts?

A couple years ago I had to have dental surgery and took antibiotics and I’ve been having problems with yeast ever since. I’ve had about a dozen vaginal yeast infections since the antibiotics even though at 37 I’d never had one before. I also have started to develop yeast rashes behind my knees, under boob bra line area and in the creases of my elbows. These are places that I notice get sweaty when I jog or garden outside. I dry off and change quickly but by then it’s too late. This has happened at least 4 times this year.

Everything clears up if I take fluconazole but the yeast keeps taking over my body and it’s only a matter of time before I’m itchy and rashy again. The yeast is reappearing sooner after the each outbreak.

The antibiotics definitely threw my microbiome out of wack leading to candida overgrowth. How do I even begin to heal this? My doctor just keeps giving me fluconazole but I’d like to try to prevent this from happening again. I’m totally depressed and miserable.

I’ve read thru many of your posts and success stories but I’m totally overwhelmed with probiotics and supplements and “biofilm busters” and don’t even know where to start (I have cut out all alcohol as obvious step 1).

Can anyone give me some guidance on a simple diet and protocol to start? Thank you in advance.

Anyone know what’s been going on since the jail calls were leaked out? Does he still talk to Jesse? Does he have a new “wife”?

I believe he was on kiosk ban and couldn’t have visitors or send anything out until May 2026 but now we are here and I hadn’t heard anything lately so figured I’d ask you guys 🥰

I am very aware that “stalling” bedtime is a normal and classic toddler thing, but my 2.5 yo’s stalling is becoming violent and extreme.

I see your posts about your toddler demanding to be read more and more bedtime books and never quenched thirst to delay the inevitable…bedtime. So my son’s behavior seems totally unhinged in comparison.

Bedtime routine has become a literal physical altercation in the last couple months. It requires my husband to carry him upstairs against his will as he attempts to punch him in the face or bite his hands to be released. Then we BOTH must basically wrestle him to put pajamas on (one must hold each limb still while the other puts on the leg or sleeve) and I have to pin him down on the floor with my legs to brush his teeth while he screams bloody murder.

Trust me we’ve tried to make all this “fun” but as soon as he gets a whiff that the fun is winding down and bedtime is imminent, the physical resistance begins.

Just this week my son has full strength karate kicked me in the mouth as I was leaned over him trying to put on his night diaper and he also attacked my face with his fingernails leaving me with literal bloody gashes across my nose and cheek when I was bringing him to his room. He is just getting bigger and stronger and I can’t even do bedtime by myself anymore or I will get injured.

I have a hard time believing anybody else’s “bedtime routine” is this angry and hostile and after he’s asleep it breaks my heart about what the last hour before bed looked like. Has anybody been here before? I feel terrible and don’t know what else to do :(

A couple years ago I had to have dental surgery and took antibiotics and I’ve been having problems with yeast ever since.

I’ve had about a dozen vaginal yeast infections since the antibiotics even though at 37 I’d never had one before.

I also have started to develop yeast rashes behind my knees and in the creases of my elbows. These are places that I notice get sweaty when I jog or garden outside.

Everything clears up if I take fluconazole but the yeast keeps taking over my body and it’s only a matter of time before I’m itchy and rashy again.

The antibiotics definitely threw my microbiome out of wack leading to candida overgrowth. How do I even begin to heal this? My doctor just keeps giving me fluconazole but I’d like to try to prevent this from happening again!