the balcony door is stuck. the door works exactly like a window. so basically earlier i accidentally opened the door wrong so it was turned and tilted at the same time and then i somehow closed it but i accidentally closed it wrong. now its stuck. i cannot open it or close it properly. does anyone know how to fix this? (i tried to search up how to fix this but i cannot find anything with this exact problem)
today i got my first SHORT haircut. like i asked for a buzzcut but idk if what the hairdresser did is buzzcut. of course i am pre t so i dont look amazing with this haircut but its hair, it will grow out. and while im trying to convince myself that i dont look THAT bad, my mom is out here actively crashing out on me for getting such a short haircut and for other not related stuff. then the other days i wonder why i hate my mom so much. shes literally the reason why i exist (i do NOT want to exist), the last few times i did sh, it was because of my mom and etc. i already have suicidal ideation every single day but right now i just cant have any other thoughts than "ill kill myself" even though i am not brave enough to actually kms. being trans is ruining my life so much. i wouldnt wish this nightmare of a life on my worst enemy.
as esu 10 klaseje ir labai noriu pereiti is gimnazijos i profesine. noriu kuo greiciau tureti bent kiek normalu darba po 12 klases, nes as nenoriu likti siuose namuose ilgiau nei keletas menesiu po tos 12 klases ir siaip tiesiog jau nieko nesugebeciau kokiam universitete, kolegijoje ar dar kokiu ten yra dalyku. nors labai bandau ikalbinti mama, kad leistu mane i profesine, ji yra visiskai pries, net ir ka besakyciau. jai tik rupi jos pacios nuomone, nors cia viskas yra apie mano ateiti, o ne jos. ji kazkodel isikalusi i galva, kad viska sugebesiu ir t.t., bet kiekviena diena man jau viskas vis sunkiau ir sunkiau (ir su mokykla ir su psichine sveikata), as tikrai nesugebesiu jos tu nesamoniu. gal kazkas zino, kaip mano mama itikinti, kad leistu mane i profesine? nes kitaip turesiu po tos jos gimnazijos dirbti maximoje ir viskas.