u/hannibalsfleshlight

Honestly I wasn't even sure if I really missed him anymore because he had already irrevocably damaged my self esteem to the point I just didn't think i could deal with it again. My brother died, I lost my job, and then one day I open facebook and see where it recommended me to friend his new Facebook. He's never even really used social media. Profile picture is his new GF, he took her horseback riding like he was gonna take me and he's wearing my shirt I gave him. I get that it's a shirt and I probably never meant anything to him but damn. He made me feel like I was too damaged to be worth anything to anyone and it meant nothing to him to do that.

He literally went out of his way to make fun of me for self harming when I was having a psychotic episode. It doesn't even feel like it's about his absence anymore. It's been a year and a half and I still feel worthless, and it was really just the most convenient way to wash his hands of me. Fucking sucks.