and i meant it. but you know as well as i do that i wouldn’t if i didn’t have to. and it’s not about pride and it’s not about anyone else but you and me.
i don’t want to hurt you. i dont want you to hurt me. i doubt we can handle another go at things. it’s why i can’t come back.
for a very long time, i just wanted answers. i wanted to know why it all went down the way it did and i wanted someone to blame. i didnt care if it was you, me, randoms, i just wanted to be able to point my finger at the problem and say 'here's where it all went south". the more i sit with it, the more i start to believe it was just everything. stop me if im wrong.
i played my part as well and im sorry. hope you're doing okay despite it all. ill leave out the part about missing you.
happy 4th