u/historyofourlives

Hermanos ecuatorianos, se viene una vez más un período difícil, como piensan preparar sus hogares para el periodo de lluvias intensas y para los apagones considerando que en el pasado tuvimos hasta días sin energía. Lamentablemente muchos dejan los preparativos para el momento y es ahí donde lo que pudimos haber comprado con tiempo se encarece. Yo por ejemplo estoy pensando que comprar para tener unas horas de energía para trabajar en casa, en los apagones del pasado tuve un aparato que me daba suficiente energía para mantener el wifi unas horas, quisiera comprar algo más potente. Sobre todo digan cosas que se deberían tener en el hogar y que de ley se van a poner más caras cuando todos corran a buscarlas en el momento.

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Gotta handle it to him, he gave a good fight and had an enormous army, but i retreated after he decimated my invading force, then he ran to defend the other side of his empire against Genghis and i returned to raid and reconquer Korinthos from him. I have to add that he ran to fight me after defeating lakshmibai at Rouen. We really are shitty neighbors.

Algunos amigos ecuatorianos tenemos una miniliga de fantasy premier league que llevamos desde hace algunos años. La cuota es de $30 y se reparte premios al top 4 y al mejor dt de cada trimestre. Además tenemos un grupo de whatsapp con buena comunidad. Si alguien sigue la premier y quiere formar parte de un grupo ecuatoriano chevre, sano y competitivo me escribe por interno.

My son will turn 5 soon and its going to sound weird but i am very happy that he hasn't had to survive a murder attempt like I did at his age. He goes to a good school, he has a lot of friends and he is genuinely happy. Each time he crosses a new milestone i am remembered that everything i do and work for allows him to live the best life.

All my life i tried to fix myself, to be normal like everyone else, to aspire to happiness and im not gonna lie, i had some moments, but life has been hard and I just dont have the energy to try anymore, i have gone to therapy, meds, all the things and I just cant see how life becomes less bleak. Currently i am very stable, corporate job and earn enough to give my son a good life, but I feel like the best I can aspire is to make money for the rest of my life so my son has the best chance possible. But my chance is gone. I am a background character in someone else story, I don’t get an arc, I am a caretaker and making peace with that has given me the push to go the rest of life with dignity.

What I wanted to say is that looking for happiness and personal fulfillment made me so miserable, but just having no expectations for myself has given me peace. For a long time i wanted to dissapear, but I can carry on living as a guardian of my son present and future.

Sometimes people will congratulate me for being such a good father. They will praise me for having a stable work and spending a lot of time with my son. They don’t know i am absolutely dead inside, my organism full of antidepressants, i am the husk of what once was a man, now just a robot with a single purpose: give my son a good life.

Sometimes life can be so unforgiving and unfair that you can only carry on and endure. I don’t even get the privilege to off myself, I have a duty with my son. Is just that nothing of this is how I imagined my adulthood. I tried to be good man, but everyday being a good man feels more like being a fool. I prefer to take this pills and not feel anything so I can keep working my office job and giving my son the best life possible.