This Is What I'm Supposed To Be Doing
My [27M] wife [26F] gave birth to our first child back in early June; a son. I've been on paternity leave since then and it's been the best ~2.5 months of my life bar none.
I grew up one of the older kids in a big family helping out with little siblings so I never doubted I'd have the technical ability to take care of a kid, but the entire pregnancy I got more and more anxious about if it was what I actually wanted or if I was just following in my parents' footsteps. Turns out it is exactly what I wanted.
I love taking care of my son. I love feeding him bottles and changing his diapers and giving him baths and staying up all night with him so my wife can get good sleep. I love the new dimension it's added to the relationship my wife and I have. We were already in a rock solid marriage, but I think it's just opened up new ways to support each other and show our love, as well as reveal new aspects of each other to appreciate.
I love that there's this little guy who lights up when I walk in the room and giggles when I kiss his hand. I love seeing how curious he is and how hungry he is to understand and participate in the world around him. I cannot wait to introduce him to all the aspects of life my wife and I love and help him understand who he is, where he comes from and where he's going.
I don't want to act like it's easy (not that you guys would believe me if I did), because it's definitely not. It's been a ton of hard work, especially since he was born almost 2 months premature and the early going was extremely stressful. But the upsides of fatherhood have totally surpassed my expectations; it feels like what I'm supposed to be doing, which is a huge relief for a guy who's never felt a ton of professional satisfaction from any of the jobs I've worked for money.
I've only got a week left on paternity leave and it makes me want to cry. I'm going to cherish these months for the rest of my life but it sucks that I have to do anything besides taking care of him and being there for my wife. If any generous millionaires or universities studying the family want to bankroll my wife and I being stay at home parents please DM.