u/honda-cervix

It’s so prevalent. So many people go “are they love bombing me..” or “did X love bomb Y in *show name* ?”

And it’s always no. Because love bombing is an intentional tactic used by abusers.

Forgetting to lay boundaries and being too affectionate in a new relationship, or simply being a more overtly affectionate person, is not love bombing.

So many terms are getting watered down online. Gaslighting is not just lying, etc.

I found the 9&10 blu ray collection on amazon but I cannot find blu rays for the moffat era at all.

(I’m in america)

I love red baron deep dish microwave pizzas. You fold one side of the box out and it becomes a microwave tray. But after you take it out of the microwave you put it on a plate. Well previously I’d put them on these pretty flat amazon basics glass plates. The pizzas perfectly fit on them. But my mom got more of the regular plates we use, in yellow. So she gave the amazon basics ones to my aunt.

But our regular plates are slightly more curved and they make the grease of my pizzas pool in the middle a bit. And now I can’t find the plates on amazon.

AGGGHHHHH!!!!!

I asked her to at least keep one or two for my pizzas. She didn’t

I have a unique bowl for pasta. It round down the bottom and it’s from world market, perfect for getting each bite covered in sauce.

I have a unique bowl for cereal, it’s got handles and more straight walls which in my experience makes it spill less.

But nooo, a unique plate or two for my pizzas is too far…

She probably just forgot but it still hurts.

EDIT: I FOUND IT ON AMAZON!! It only comes in the full 18pc set though :(

It’s stated multiple times in 11s run that the image of an angel becomes an angel, so much that an image of one in amy’s eyes was becoming one. But the literally fake statues of angels in the hotel room in God Complex didn’t become real? Why not?

(Partial hospitalization program)

I did a 10 day PHP in early 2022. It was helpful and very soothing.

But ever since I keep thinking about how much I wish I could live like that all the time. There was routine, the lunch pizza was good. There was yoga and music and art therapy. Poetry and group therapy. It was so nice.

Even before this, I knew I liked the sterile white of hospitals, the way that usually when you’re there most of what stresses me out day to day is completely out of my hands.

So PHP, a system where everything is pretty sensory gentle, there was a consistent routine you know in advance, and there was enough but not too much socializing. It was so good. I miss it a lot.

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I have arachnophobia? well I'm also able to feel the slightest fuzz brush my arm, so I am rly anxious as shit when I feel something on myarm.

being around other people is the hardest part. I've been dealing with this lately. After a walk with someone, We'll leave and their breathing is heavier from walking, but at the end of each inhale there's a high pitched bit. and it's hard to not recoil inward a bit. but even showing a sign of discomfort is rude i guess because then they ask what's wrong and if you answer honestly, no judgement, it's rude to answer a question they literally asked. So you mask even more. you suffer inside to stop recoiling.

except it isn't just that. it's the scraping of silverware against plates. it's sniffling.

My brain can't filter out noise so I can only go to restaurants during the week outside of the lunch rush, I either feel like shit for dictating lunch or dinner plans so much, or feel sad because sometimes I just can't go. eventually people stop inviting you out.

or I mask, and I can go, maybe put earplugs in, but now conversation is harder. I stopped ruining everyone else's time but now I barely talk and I can hear myself chewing.

sensory issues make food hard even outside of external factors. I have ARFID. my diet is pretty restrictive, it's mostly carbs and lack of interception means I struggle with portion control and knowing when I am full. so now I hate even going outside or trying to make friends because I hate my body and any outfit i would want to wear to express myself doesn't fit or doesn't look good.

(please do not give me health advice in the comments. I know i mentioned in the title, but it goes double here.)

also I'm trans and so I struggle with finding a hairstyle that's fem enough but also not very sensory triggering. and the weight issues don't help with passing or expressing fem at all.

So i wear sweatpants and a t shirt everywhere. and I don't pass. and everyone thinks I'm a man.

I just feel like there's no end in sight. life is a pit of senseless despair where the only way to have companionship is to suffer a million times more than you would have to if anyone was actually accommodating.

Idk why I posted this. I just need support