arachnophobe trying to be more spider friendly
i've been terrified of spiders my entire life. when i was younger, the ditch at the end of my road where the bus would pick me up, was always occupied by what my mom called a banana spider. it absolutely terrified me with its huge web, neon body and long, sharp legs. ever since seeing that, i've been the kill-on-sight terrified of spiders.
a couple years ago, i made friends with a jumping spider at the park. he was missing a leg and he was a regal jumping spider, so i named him prince. once i understood i was safe, he accompanied me all day. he was kinda like a puppy or a kitten. the first time i ever felt bad for a spider was when he was crawling on my back and a smacked him. i didn't know that was him! and of course he bit me, which i totally deserved. i found another one that day, which was missing the opposite leg of prince. it was really cute. since then, jumping spiders are my friends. :)
recently, i've found at least 3 cellar spiders in my bathroom, kinda near the shower. it freaked me out at first to see some pervert spider above me in the shower, but i eventually grew to like it. it's like a shower friend. it eats flies, gnats and roaches. i've been watching it get fat off of bugs. or maybe it's pregnant...i found another one not too far from the first. i know i wont be able to keep them there forever. their webs have been spreading all through my bathroom, where the wall and ceiling meet. eventually i'll have to relocate them. but it's progress because the me last year would've killed them on sight.
tl;dr: i'm growing to like spiders, at least the non-deadly ones. because even though i'm scared, they're a lot smaller than me and also scared.