I just want to scream

I’m 4 days post d&c for my second miscarriage in 6 months. The two times I’ve gotten pregnant, I’ve miscarried. This time, we opted for a d&c with Anora testing.

I’ve been working with an RE since we started trying. (I’m 36 and the fertility clinic will see you after age 35 at any time here) All of my tests are good - labs, SIS, HSG, etc.. husband’s semen analysis was exceptional. My RE told me she was surprised this pregnancy ended in loss because everything looked very reassuring in the beginning.

Once we get the Anora back, she said she also wants to consider RPL labs and I’m hoping that will include karotyping and such.

No one but our close friends and parents know I’m going through this. I just want to scream. Post it on Facebook. Tell everyone, “hey, I’m drowning in sadness right now and no one can tell me why!”. I also wish that people were more open about miscarriage because it does help to see and hear stories similar to your own.

I just feel so lonely. I feel like my body is failing me. I know if the baby wasn’t healthy, my body did what nature intended it to do. But that doesn’t make me feel any better right now, honestly. I’m mad at my body. I’m mad at God. I’m just mad. Sad. Disappointed. This is awful. :(

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u/iLoveSnooze — 10 hours ago

Likely second miscarriage

I posted about an elective ultrasound showing I was only 5w5d when I should have been closer to 6w3d and caught some crap about getting an elective.
Well, turns out she was right.
I went to my clinic this past Tuesday (I should have been 6w6d) and the fetal pole only measured 5w3d without a heartbeat. While I know that’s early for a heartbeat, the pregnancy hadn’t grown at all.
So my clinic scheduled me a follow up scan for next Tuesday. I started spotting brown and now it’s progressed to cramping with light, dark red period-like flow.
I’m certain on my dates of Lmp and ovulation bc I’ve been working with a fertility clinic.
And of course it’s on a Friday so I’ll probably miscarry at home over the weekend. This is my second miscarriage in 6 months. All of my testing comes back normal. I’m so upset. We got pregnant the first try and it was a chemical. Then, 6 months later, we finally get pregnant again and now this.
I don’t understand how some people, that don’t even want kids, have multiple healthy pregnancies by mistake but, someone that genuinely wants to give a child a good life gets dealt this shitty hand.
I’m sorry, I’m just sad and angry.

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u/iLoveSnooze — 10 days ago

Elective ultrasound nightmare

Against my better judgement, I went for an elective ultrasound at what I thought would be 6w3d based on known LMP, known ovulation, and first positive 10dpo. So it leaves little room for dating error.
The tech measured my gestational sac in one measurement at 12.9mm and told me I was 5w1d. Yolk sac present but no fetal pole.
A 12.9mm gestational sac correlates with a 5w5d-6w1d gestation, which would make more sense.
I have a scan at my fertility clinic Wednesday but now I’m spiraling thinking I’m going to miscarry. Anyone have a similar story measurement/dating wise that came out okay? My betas were fine in the beginning. They didn’t test anymore after 19dpo.

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u/iLoveSnooze — 14 days ago

It’s finally my turn 🥹

First tests are 10dpo afternoon, then 11dpo morning, and 12dpo morning. I can’t believe this is finally happening for me. I’m goin to get betas today. Praying for a sticky, healthy baby! 🤞🏽

u/iLoveSnooze — 1 month ago

Positive HSG experience

Hey everyone,

I just wanted to share my positive HSG experience. When I was preparing for the test, I saw so many posts about how painful and awful it was for them. My experience wasn’t bad at all. However, I absolutely can see how and why it would be painful for others.

My RE did my test and she used lidocaine to numb my cervix. I haven’t seen that mentioned in many (if any) other posts about the test. I feel like that helped so much! Also, I did have some resistance and slow filling on my right side that required a little extra dye but, it ultimately cleared.

During the test, I didn’t feel any pain. I did take 800mg of advil about an hour before and I think that also helped.

The only discomfort I’m having the day after is some cramping and lower back pain on the right side. Which, since my tube likely had some debris in it (hence the slow fill and eventual spill compared to my left that was WIDE open), it makes sense.

I hope this does not come off as downplaying anyone else’s experience because I am certain this can be quite painful. I just wanted to give a positive experience for those that are super anxious beforehand like I was.
Love to all 🩷

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u/iLoveSnooze — 2 months ago

I’m kind of stuck choosing the next step in our TTC journey.

Long story short, we got pregnant first try back in December but that ended in a chemical and we haven’t had success since.

All of my labs are normal. AMH is 1.98 (I’m 36). My husband’s SA was phenomenal. My saline ultrasound was clear. My 7dpo progesterone was 13.31 earlier this week.

So, I am ovulating on my own.

My RE suggests Letrozole.

She also said I could have an HSG if I wanted to.

At first, I wanted to just keep trying natural and put off the HSG bc I was able to get pregnant so I know at least one tube is working. But now, I’m reconsidering.

I’m wondering if I should do the HSG next cycle and have all the testing I could have possibly done over with, before turning to Letrozole in June maybe?

I’m so exhausted mentally and emotionally. I feel like I’m “normal” on paper but nothing is happening and I don’t know why. So maybe my only hope is Letrozole?

Idk. I’m just scared of the side effects of Letrozole if I’m being honest. I’m also a little scared of the HSG. The internet makes it sound awful.

Anyone have any friendly advice on what my next steps should be? Help me think this through rationally?

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u/iLoveSnooze — 2 months ago