I just want to scream
I’m 4 days post d&c for my second miscarriage in 6 months. The two times I’ve gotten pregnant, I’ve miscarried. This time, we opted for a d&c with Anora testing.
I’ve been working with an RE since we started trying. (I’m 36 and the fertility clinic will see you after age 35 at any time here) All of my tests are good - labs, SIS, HSG, etc.. husband’s semen analysis was exceptional. My RE told me she was surprised this pregnancy ended in loss because everything looked very reassuring in the beginning.
Once we get the Anora back, she said she also wants to consider RPL labs and I’m hoping that will include karotyping and such.
No one but our close friends and parents know I’m going through this. I just want to scream. Post it on Facebook. Tell everyone, “hey, I’m drowning in sadness right now and no one can tell me why!”. I also wish that people were more open about miscarriage because it does help to see and hear stories similar to your own.
I just feel so lonely. I feel like my body is failing me. I know if the baby wasn’t healthy, my body did what nature intended it to do. But that doesn’t make me feel any better right now, honestly. I’m mad at my body. I’m mad at God. I’m just mad. Sad. Disappointed. This is awful. :(