something bad happened today and triggered me. my next therapy session is next friday and i’m not sure if i should email my therapist to update her about what happened? i’m supposed to start emdr and i still don’t mind doing that but i thought it would be good to let her know. if i tell her during session, i’m just scared i will keep “delaying” emdr because it already happened once
i have my first emdr reprocessing session next week and my therapist and i identified a memory to target but she told me to give that memory a name before the next time i see her. i can’t seem to think of any name or word that comes to mind?? i try to think of a word but my mind goes blank
i know the touchstone memory has a correlation to my bigger trauma but i feel like that memory is not “valid” or “traumatic” enough
i’ve never had an issue with managing session gaps, yes i do miss talking to my therapist and i would like to see her more often but i always get through it
but ever since my last session, we ended it by talking about starting emdr reprocessing and i do feel okay about it. i think i’m in a decent headspace to finally start
but i also realised i’ve been having all sorts of dreams and thoughts about therapy have been coming up. there are things i forgot to mention to her but i only thought of it after session and i’m still thinking about it
i’ve also been dreaming about my therapist leaving her practice which i find weird because it has never come up before. other dreams have been coming up every night since then too
i don’t know what this means 🥲
i’ve always had issues really feeling my emotions. even in therapy, i talk so much about the situations i was in but i push all emotions aside. i hate crying in front of people
but today my therapist really hit the nail and i felt myself getting emotional when answering her questions. and for the first time, i didn’t want to push them away. i didn’t cry but i almost did and to me, i feel like it’s really powerful because i never expected myself to want to show my real emotions to someone. i think the trust between client and therapist is so so important and so meaningful. i love therapy 🥹
every time it’s the week of my therapy appointment i get so excited to see my therapist cause i have so many things to share. healing is messy and the things i share are kinda sad but i love meeting my therapist to talk about them.
but it also scares me though cause at this point of my life, i can’t imagine myself not being in therapy. it’s hard but so life changing. i’m not dependent on my therapist for everything but it’s really nice to have someone that listens to what i have to say 🥹