Okay so I know it's a bit silly but one of the things that confirmed to me that I am trans is wanting a BOWL CUT, out of all haircuts, for ages, and in fact still do... (I AM GETTING THAT DAMN BOWL CUT AND NOBODY IS STOPPING ME.)
Anyway, I wanted to know what are /ftm funny things that made you guys "man I'm such a dude, bro"
TW: doubt about/guilt for being trans
I'm having a lot of anxiety about not being valid as a trans man because of my mom's guilt. I think she is worried that she "made me trans" because of her own body. My mom is petite and skinny, doesn't have a typically "feminine" body as she is flatchested and have straight hips.
For a long while, because she expressed that feeling once, I thought that I wasn't valid as trans because I just wanted to "look like my mother" like some other people. My mom often has had to deal with jealousy when it comes to her lean body. She can't gain weight and I know it pains her. I feel bad because I don't know if I'm just another terrible person or if I am valid to be a trans guy.
I guess parts of the issue is that my mom also have a lot of difficulty accepting my transition. She often misgender me when we're on the phone and then correct herself. She also confessed to me that she has struggle seeing me as anything masculine. (To be fair, I asked.)
I've always been a "gentle" kid with untypical interests for a boy. I liked to dress up and be silly and didn't like "typical guy kid" so she doesn't seem to think I could be one.
I guess I just wanted to want and possibly know if anyone else struggled with these thoughts or/if anyone has any advices
I'm relatively early in my transition but I am an adult. I have autism and adhd. I prefer to precise if any case I sound silly to people
I often laugh because something isn't funny rather than because it genuinely is. I don't sadly talk to other folks so I wanted to know how many were we outside to be like that because I feel a little built upside down 😭 I have autism if that helps??
Ps: I kinda feel like an asshole for it but I truly don't want to be one 😭