u/infinitude_

Yesssssss

Way that these niggas behave, should be sitting ashamed 

I be sinning for fame but they shifting the blame.

I shift with the stick when I spin in your lane 

I tried to be kind and be rid of my ways

They take shots and hide hands but the fingerprints stain 

“Uncertain” and “risk” are the terms that I miss when I’m living too straight 

They sleep on my worth, I’m relaxed 

They need to go earn em some plaques 

I turn up on tracks while they burn up and crash 

The curses you spat ain’t disturbing my naps 

The pennies are turning to stacks 

if any verse us I’m strapped I turn up in black like return of the Mack 

Ready to curse your rehearsed little personal act 

With these verbs that I write, even verses I scrap the words are as tight as a submersible hatch 

Somebody tell em to rap 

We gave you foundation to build -

Where’s the development at 

If you so good in your hood -

How come you never been back 

Somethings can never be squashed

I’m running away with the game -

You need your memories jogged 

The shit that I did I did it alone 

I gave you a hand 

And you bit through the bone 

I can get surgical yo 

Age don’t always turn into growth 

Rappers all rhyme about work 

But we know your IG comes first 

Fuck all the lives that you hurt 

Your girl that would drive you to church 

Believed in you when you was a starter -

But you had your eyes on dessert 

Damn 

You playing a role, should be chasing the goal 

I came in alone and been taking control, 

You serve up a lot, I ain’t tasting the soul 

Ay, 

Furthermore, Furthermore 

Verses raw, words’ll pour 

But there’s nothing to explaiiiin 

Yeah, 

Bali I’m really on route 

Crazy how dreams can come true 

Baby I’m throwing lacroix 

These babies are throwing their toys 

Clips get em triggered so fast,

The safety is off for you boys 

This is sport not an art 

This a war not a dance 

This is raw not enhanced 

Business talks? Not a chance 

Give it all, live it large 

I mean what more can I saaaaay 

There’s just-

There’s just nothing to explaiiiiiin 

Yeah 

You can play or spectate,

Be the wave or get baked, 

See her get a new tatt :

It says J-O-S-H 

There’s just nothing to - 

^(beat change)

They think we peons to these dudes 

Their life is streaming and the views 

Still flaunting billboard 

I can see why ya’ll confused

If that’s the meter that you use 

Yeah

Imma force on the court and I’m stealing the ball 

Real work means real perks, and i been  reaping em all 

Five, Five, Five deposits down 

Who gon’ try to stop us now 

Printed green and billie jeans 

Like I’m Michael in Motown, nigga

They scary in raps nigga where are ya’ll at

I’m making a scene, girls makeup on me coz I’m wearing all black 

I finished you once now prepare to get lapped 

The air is so dark and I’m very relaxed 

They swearing they hard, I swear by the facts

Who showed up in the end and whose scared to come back 

There’s just nothing to explaiiiin 

Dreaming of flying to Bali sleeping off wine and Bacardi 

Demons been trying to harm me, leeches inside of my army, domestic violence was nasty, 

Swam against the sea all my life- 

homelessness was a giant tsunami 

Past been a series of fights-

You see me surviving finales 

Yup, 

It’s got a toll, had a rotting soul 

I was dropping goals like both Ronnies’ toes ^((2 ronaldo’s))

But I got control, I been blockin woes

26, i wanna drop some gold before I’ve gotten old and my clock is cold 

I ain’t scared of the tocking tho 

I’ll be wrinkled but my heart won’t have an honest fold 

Past is hard to parse so I stop and go 

That’s why, despite my desire,
Whenever I write up some fire - 

I just drop and roll 

Mm…

My roads were never straightened,

Everyone had a path but I fell adjacent 

I thought the degrees of separation were extreme and getting blatant 

Til I’d feel the medication oversee the detonation of anxiety’s lil rented spaces in my head it leased for segregation -

Between me and any people round me, this relegation was a fear I had for ages 

That I was different somehow 

And they would figure it out 

But in real life I realised I’m me and I don’t need an explanation 

beat change…

Ohhhhhh

You was winning shit so loud

Records spinning - fuck beginnings

You just living in the now

It’s okay - til one day

You don’t deliver to your crowd

Diminishes your loot, and all em niggas you was round are giving you the boot, they fuckin kick em while he’s down

^(Goddamn)

Their love is livin’ withcha

But believe me - it's so easy

To smudge a pretty picture
^(Goddamn)

beat change

All the youngens are confused

Bloody sport will leave you bludgeoned ‘less you come up with some moves

I understand it’s underhanded and there’s nothing I can do

^(Yeah, yeah, yeah,)

They run in with the news :

Atomic bomb has dropped and you got trouble in your view

You trying to step forward but they backing up this time

They know all the tricks behind the magic that you try

The day they say you’re washed they just hang you up to dry

^(Yeah, yeah, yeah,)

That’s why I don’t want it: not the belts

No awards, no applause

I just wanna make it being honest to myself

I’m just stating all the facts, you’ll be slaving on em tracks while they make you the main act

“Baby you’re so gravy” -

While patting your replacement on the back

^(Yeahhh,)

Happens to the best

They’ll turn your spotlight off while they’re dapping up the rest

Won't believe it til you see it and it happens in the flesh

ay....

I’m finding my faves are declining with age

They try to be great but the rhymes on display got a silencers range

Your last drop was just kinda ok,

where's the defiance and rage, there’s no heat on the streets, maybe the climate has changed

I want the aggression that cut.

Your shit was like lessons to us.

Now it feels like getting the bus.

Where is the heart in the songs,

Swear all the artistry’s gone,

I don’t hear excitement in raps

Ain’t hating im rhyming the facts

As you go climbing the racks

Complacency slides through the cracks

I’d rather you go to ghost writers -

Instead of just dying on tracks

Half of me’s clowning around

Other half’s down coz the sounds -

We get are for lounges and gowns

I’m not even a pro

But I could write a drake album right now

(Now,Now,Now,Now,Now,Now-)

Beat change

Yeah,

For my day ones….
Ok -
Yeah,

Why I gotta leave earth before this worlds gonna thank me

I make my earnings in beef like I’m working for Ramsey

How many summers I filled

How many hundreds of mills

Ya’ll wanted someone to kill

Niggas act like they fuckin forreal

But they never fuckin forreal

Coz the phone that their baby girls got -

Is the one with my number in still

And trust we been fuckin for real

(For real)

She can’t even fit in her jeans

I still manage to slip in between

Remind her this dick isn’t free

Information that she’s giving to me

I never followed ja rules

Guess that’s the 50 in me

(For real)

I’m sweet but I’m dark like a toffee

I’ll make your heart race harder than coffee

I know that the beggars will hate me

They should get a medal for bravery

Way that they step up against me

I got a new therapist lately

You know her chest is amazing

I know the debts you been paying

I could never walk in your shoes

Look at the steps you been takin

(For real)

Stuck to my roots now I’m up high in the tree

Gotta see with your eyes to believe

None really come wiser than me

Girls that I wine and delete

I swear that they like me for me

I’m still rapping the same and the beat isn’t changing

My raps are all ads for seekingarrangements

Pseudo deep bars about me in the basement

Some more boasts, it's my typical move

Don’t forget my guys are criminals too

I wanna be Michael, compare me to jack’

if the glove fits then i'm wearing the hat

(Forreal)

Let me talk some more about hoes

They 18 and I’m 40 years old

My guys are just awful ya know

(Forreeeeeeeeaaaal)

Talk about Hoes in the songs

Coz He went alone to the prom

(Forreal)

I sung and rapped at a bar-

In this imperfect lil town,

I’m walking back to my car -

After the curtains came down, 

I text my girl it’s so great - 

To be performing on stage, 

A woman shouts me a hey - 

And then starts walking my way, 

She says I loved what you spit - 

Did you just write it yourself?, 

Well actually yeah I did -

Writing real life is a help, 

She said you’re holding shit in - 

Guess on the mic you can breathe, 

I wonder after tonight….

What you gon’ write about me ? 

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana - let me be! 

—————————————

Her gaze is staring so far,

But I’m withholding myself  -

Your music shows who you are, 

That’s why I know you so well -

Look at your hands on my hip,

That’s a sub conscious mistake-

She planted seeds of intrigue,

Until I wanted a taste-

Grazed my neck with her lips,

I almost had her right there-

She felt me tense up my grip,

I wanna take you somewhere -

She said that’s ok, 

Baby I know what you need-

You know my girl is at home, 

She says that don’t bother me- 

I don’t care what you say 

I wanna go too far 

I’ll be your everything 

And make you feel a star 

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana - come on! 

—————————————————

So we arrive at her place-

I couldn’t hold it no more, 

Sunk in excitement and shame- 

As i go closing the door, 

Our bodies knew what to do-

So there was nothing to say,

She says just chew on these 2-

They’ll throw your worries away,

Blood quickly rushed to my head-

And as the nights getting blurred,

I laid stunned in the bed 

Pills paralysed my concern 

She said it’s ok, 

I’ll be the secret you burn 

You can do what you please 

I’ll be your freak you can hurt 

My baby called up my phone 

Diana picked up with glee

She said he’s not coming home

Because he’s sleeping with me! 

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Diana, no

Dirty Di - Dirty Diana, no 

Dirty di - Dirty Diana, no oh oh 

I’m showing my cards,

Then I let em all bluff 

I’m going full gas,

Like the pedal is stuck

Their favourites combined, 

They pray I decline,

Like your credit is fucked 

I gave em the time,

To take em some shine, 

But it’s never enough

I took my respect, 

My foots on their necks, 

I ain’t letting em up

You 40 years old,

And talking bout codes,

Like you ever been tough

That shit that you spun,

About inches and jugs,

Just ain’t measuring up

I pray that I’m not,

Made from the cloth,

That these predators cut 

Your guy is named chubs,

It’s ironic cuz,

That’s what he been tryna get em to touch 

How many girls has he pressured to fuck

Step to me, I’ll jog your memory up 

You hood when you spit,

But when it’s time - to give pussies the stick,

You ain’t getting it up 

This ain’t, any hate

it’s a letter of love 

I gave em some time,

To take em some shine,

 but it’s never enough

Buncha dumb lectures, from young one percenters

My flow of rebuttal is growing like stubble coz I’ve forgot more than you’ll ever know about struggle

Try hards I witness all bypass my limits and piss on the truths they’re so fast to diminish
when they speak, I see that they’re weak of mind, heart and spirit

I’m not in the business of cognitive dissonance, hop on a cause til it blocks off your millions, shocking the shills as I’m mocking their diligence stocking up bills or being popular ain’t gonna stop what I’m giving em, their names in the news - but once fame is removed - they’re just cocky civilians

I don’t play with my target, I wait in the darkness while aiming to scar it, spray at my mark and then pray for the carcass, the funeral’s June this May is the casket can’t say that I start it but I finish for sure, the laziest artists all sit on the shore, my wave is uncharted so gimme the floor

Long as the lyricals tight then I’m winning the fight balls in my court like the pistons tonight, the maddest of hatters, exposing the bitch in these cavalier rappers

Ay,

Ghost town, low down
Feel the road beneath me

So dark, ozark
Leaving home ain’t easy

Trust who? Just you
Me myself and I now

No one, shows up
Even if I cry out

For my health I had to dip,

Coz every helping hand got bit,

Melting grams of bricks, to sell for cash real quick

But if friendships birthed have no worth -

You ain’t a wealthy man for shi- ay

Ghost town, low down
Feel the road beneath me

So dark, ozark
Leaving home ain’t easy

No one, shows up
Even if I cry out

Trust who? Just you
Me myself and I now

Ay

I’ll reveal it….

it’s been 3 years now, I can’t believe it….

We would lay enwrapped as hours fleeted….

Now it’s gone but on this vodka I still feel it….

Your taste was my foundation, can’t conceal it….

So when I think of you,
Imma drink for two
Know wherever you end up I’m on the brink with you

(On the brink with you)

Baby just drink for me
As I think of you
Coz wherever you end up, I’m on the brink with you

(On the brink with you)

You would pull me up, when I was sinking through
And I lost your love, for things I didn’t do

Now I’m missing you
On the brink with you

(Still on the brink with you)

This void that nothing fills….

Turned my palace to a prison in these comfy hills….

I know you ask about me coz someone spilled….

Nice to know down deep that you’re worried still….

So when I think of you
Imma drink for two
Know wherever you end up I’m on the brink with you
On the brink with you

So will you drink for me?
As I sink in you?
Coz wherever you end up, I’m on the brink with you

(On the brink with you)

You would pull me up, when I was sinking through
And I lost your love, for things I did to you

Now I’m missing us
On the brink with you.

(Still on the brink with you)

Mm,

Sat all calm in a jeep.

With my Madame passed out asleep.

Problems always gotta snow ball,

Got an avalanche as we speak.

Trust is ‘sposed to be mirrored,

I got shattered glass at my feet.

I just play the cards that I’m dealt,

While I bandage scars and some burns.

People ask if i’m well,

Silence is the hardest language I learned.

Niggas sat all calm in a club.

Tryna hassle Barbie’s for love.

I’m just adding cars to my fleet,

Text my addy’s, calling my plugs.

We’re bringing back some girls,

Have that magic brought with the snus.

Yeah,

Way we living isn’t stable.

Eyes’ll glisten while I think on how,

this business isn’t faithful.

Yo, text my girl that I ain’t coming,

While I sniff this off the table….

Yeah,

27 soon man it seems so ancient,

I was a teen kid facing extreme displacement,

Full of lines that would breed engagement

But I’d never feel in place like Shamima Begum

I’d never pay for pussy, I’d seek arrangements

CPTSD trapped me inside myself,

I had to find the help of a team to break it

Others have peace, I’m chasing feats of greatness

Could never be complacent, I’m bleeding patience

Day that I speak and make it, you’ll see their faces

Yeah,

Nowadays my mind is comfy-

it’s striking trust me

Thanks to myself and the guy above me

And the barista’s who asked if I was hungry

Let me show the holes that I’d sink into

Word to casino workers for drinks and food

To my alcoholic mother who kicked me out-

We both did a lot of work, it’s so different now

Shout out to rap, singers and this booth

Sister says “wherever you go, i go”

and ain’t that the truth

Yeah,

Been through a lot of mud, I got dirty hands

Never caved, I am not a thug I’m a working man

Shoutout to my inner child man you weren’t a trap

Some days you were the thing keeping my nerves intact

So many more I could be shouting to

Including myself, I’m so proud of you

Some never learn resolve but I powered through

And I never hurt a soul, that’s a cowards move

I had to solve my struggles without a clue

This June comings what it’s all been mounting to

Yeah,

Autism was like tryna see in the dark

Wish I knew I had ADHD from the start

OCD focused me but would keep me alarmed

The demons I charred, defeating my past, still own a piece of my heart

Everytime I win the battle they leave me some scars

I’ll never give in to em by choice

Joshua is my name

Infinitude is the voice

Yeah,

Yeah,

Was the price they quoted steep…

When you went and sold my peace?…
Yeah,

What could I do along the way?…

For us to live another day ?…
Yeah,

Post it all we’re gonna meet-

And there’ll be nothing left to say

Aye

Fuckin nothing left to say

Is this really how you feel ?

I guess it’s gon’ be revealed

Coz I’m a problem that you made

you and me up in a field

Have a stand off in the hills

Imma chuck my gun away

I will kneel and fuckin lose

Just to see what gon’ do-

When there’s nothing left to say
Yeah,

Hope the price they owe you’s steep

When you went and sold my peace
Yeah,

What could I do along the way

For us to live another day ?
Yeah,

Post it all we’re gonna meet

And there’ll be nothing left to -

Yeah,
(Woo)

Aye -

I had enough of these niggas man
Really becoming my biggest fans
Leaving their comments on shit is sad
I’m easing up with a chick in hand
My dealers clutch like my trigger man
My wheels go up til I’m in Milan
She sees some luxuries n’ a bag
We gon’ need trucks and a minivan
I don’t need love, I got dinner plans
I just need someone to print the bands
Believe me these niggas don’t understand
I’m beefing beginners this summer, damn.

Aye-

Beat change

Yeah,

Soon as niggas lit the summer imma hit em with a stunner
Ain’t no beef this shits the Beatles versus Jim in living color
I let em simmer for a minute any hindrance is supper man ripping any gimmicks smooth as slipping through some butter
Higher plans and I’m the man, you just living through another
Trust I’ll never stop, you fucks be better off taking all your mics to go and interview eachother

I don’t give a fuck

Imma different motherfucker

I’ll light these niggas up

On the single of the summer

They got smoke then imma toke

Fuckin rip it when I wanna

Rappings cold as Aspen man,

My shit go Dumb and Dumber

Yeah yeah,

Yeah

Even in the fiercest of our rows,

Your light was piercing through my clouds,

I know you’ll hear this when it’s out,

Yeah,

Trying hard to love a lie, as our time was passing by

My heart was overcast by the laughs that we let die

You were always gonna be a star in someone’s sky

The task was tryna parse that it just can’t have been in mine

Mmm,

Slapped and pushed me around, so don’t act all new to this now, your back and moving through town, texting me where you’re at like usual - wow, let’s back up beautiful your act ain’t fooling me now after you went from having my back to putting me down.

Yeah, yeah

Your actions led to the split,
I don’t have to let you persist
Love dissipates when it dies
Like blowing incense back to the mist

Fool me once, thats all you

Fool me twice that’s on me

Fool me again, not in your wildest dreams

Tryna get me closer for sex

Hoping sexy photos impress

These “X”s over my head,

“Maybe it was right person wrong time”

Maybe we’ll never know-

Just let it go, with respect

Yeah…..

Let that pressure hold in your chest as I let you know what’s up next

I’m tryna focus for June, and every flow is direct

Obsessing over where I am - you getting over your head

These “X”s showing distress

“Maybe it was right person wrong time”

Maybe we’ll never know-

Just let it go-

Yeah,

They stay by the phone, to hate us and moan, but change up the tone-

When I’m back in the room

The day that this stops, my name isn’t Josh, been taking their shots-

I’ll be packing in June

My girl of the week is a certified freak like she works at JP-

Lorna, twirl on the dick

I like when they leave me, coz when life’s too easy I just don’t really-

Feel like I’m earning that shit

I walk on the path, I forge with my art, put a thorn in my heart -

And I’m burning that bridge

Aye,

Let em provoke

Yeah

Send up the smoke

Never gon’ choke

Judge or executioner

This hammer says that I’m both

I’m deep in my 20s, my people are ready, I keep em up steady-

That’s by any means

They show me respect, they know who to test these nobodies studied -

the science it seems

It’s murder on beats but nerdy lil tweets when it’s personal wow

Words of the weak, I prefer not to speak, just make a turn and then BLOAH

You know some lil slang, gotta kill to be gang, you gangstas all mouth -

I ain’t turning a cheek

If you owe me respect, Imma show in the flesh,

Coyote of rap, schooling the wolves til they’re over the edge

And returning their schemes

Goats in duress, they know who to test - I finish my starts, been opening less -

Coz the rhymings supreme

Times aren’t the same, their titles are strained

Breath is baited just waiting for lies on my name and I won’t complain

Coz soon as I turn up the heat the climate will change

They play for the memes, I say what I mean, you niggas ain’t friends

The field is depressed, I feel like a ref as I give em the pen’

Aye

Everything starts leaving when you care

Hear em coming, demons in the snares

Don’t expect the reaper to be fair

Shottas that I met on the bottom,

Some we had to leave em stuck in there

They was broke, I found em unprepared

Pulled em out the ground as they was scared

Fuck the props, my flowers in the air

Shit ain’t some announcement that I wear

Keeping all the cowards in my prayers

My will lookin like the book of Samson -

Leaving all my power in my heir

Days when I was knocking back the meds

So I can’t drown or rock in back to bed

Ain’t no time for Josh to be depressed

Gotta track each comma in my head

Or the shit’ll stop until it’s dead

We all know the fish starts rotting from the -

Aye

Heavy is the dollar on the head

Yeah,

Fuck the flowers, buy em for the grave

Life’s a current, see the tide of change

Kings are threatened, feel their titles weigh

Each disciples seeing idols strain

See the stars and stare up at their light

Niggas love comparing em to Christ

Everyone makes shots for the top

Get em there, they scared of fuckin heights

It’s not who can rise, it’s who survives the fall

Shots and rounds, the loser buys em all

The money dries, the group declines your calls

You sided with the Judas fighting Paul

Users going through a life withdrawal

Niggas always tryna be Gods

Just for us to crucify em all.

Yeah,

Chasing approval is wastage removal just taking your trash tryna make it all useful

Plaudits to dummies is hornets and honey, applauding the awful, it borders on funny, our wages are frugal, They’re pouring in money, got a face they can google? Then fortune is coming!

Sys-tem works, Rich-get-served, we get scraps, picked from dirt - the keys distract, strip their worth, race de-bates, hate your mates, twist and turn, left and right, left them fight - twits don’t learn

Rogan proclaims that he’s fighting the power, from his 100 million ivory tower, cunt met Trump once and decided to cower, can’t be relying on farces beside em, so I got Luigi M out of Arkham Asylum next bullet he spreads at a CEOs head might be the spark that unites em

Foes get bagged- toes get tagged - no holds barred - no white flags - June this year, use their fear - won’t go back

The boy has been in the booth lately

Can’t kill the noise and my voice is infinitude baby

I don’t want interviews or to be in the news “so you just want em all in a noose?” Maybe

So many abusers in music and none shall prevail

Lucky you see coz if it’s up to me they’d be under the jail

Beat change

Start recording,

As the stars are falling

Rappers ascending mountains

reality checks been bouncing

How do you lose a mis-match

Then go and sue for diss tracks

Gods are depressed and whinin’

Honestly, Nevermind then

The bells ringing loud for 2

Just another round to lose

You tryna make power moves

While wearing a cowards shoes

Bros around him like hoes round Howard hughes

All these receding hairlines

Tryna compete for airtime

Sinking in fames allure

Blinked in the face of war

These academics doing your math

I ain’t drinking the champagne no more