It feels like a neverending cycle of worry
Hey all. So the past 2 months have been ACTUAL hell lately. It all started because of one dry heaving episode that turned very quickly into "I can't eat solid foods for a week, then two, then more". I still get my nutrients through liquid calories and still get water but the anxiety or lingering fear, never goes away. Not only that but I also have pretty bad emetophobia so that mixed with anxiety has just been...the actual worst. I can't even function normally without thinking of everything to do with my body at once and I got the classic line of "Well no one likes to throw up". I know I need help to deal with this and I wanna eat normally again so badly but my mind has literally been on edge everyday. It just fucking sucks. And everytime I think the anxiety and the pit in my stomach goes away, it immediately comes right back the next morning. It's making staying asleep and falling asleep very hard. I feel like I don't even know my body anymore and I just want this to be over with once and for all. Thank you for reading.