I keep seeing a darkship with my comfort character and it makes me want to disappear
'Disappear' is a very sugar coated term for how it would make me feel, but I don't want to get banned from here.
I don't know if many osc people come around this sub Reddit often (probably not) but I don't know where to talk about this and feel understood.
I have a character within the fandom I cherish very much, to the point I see him as a romantic partner. The problem is that this character is famously shipped with his father figure by LOTS of people in the community. I try my best to block and move on but it always worms it's way into my feed and into my life and every time I see it I just want to cry. Ive dealt with a lot of childhood trauma myself and to just see a group of people willingly project that onto a character is beyond me. Why? For comfort? Enjoyment? whats there to enjoy about it?
To feel less alone about something like that is to get professional help, and if you feel the need to make such art then please just keep it in a closed space and not accessible to people who are sensitive to it. It's not that I even look for it, I just search my character's name and it's.. There. Mixed in the results. I see it and I literally just wanna hurt myself or curl into a ball and die. Its stuck in my head for the rest of the day and I cant remove it no matter how hard I try.
The reason I'm posting about this now, though, is that I was recently trying to look for adult-friendly servers in my fandom only to run across an entire discord server of this dark ship, being actively boosted. The bio of the server mentioned topics like breeding.
Ive never felt so mentally depreciated. Does anyone know what to do to cope with something like this?