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Nobody checks on me

I just will never understand why I deserve nothing. Or why if we all deserve nothing why others get so lucky and I some how hit the jackpot on shitty lives.

I don’t have any real friends or family and my partners treat me like crap or can’t handle my mental struggles.

I’m so close to getting into my car with my dog and driving around. At this rate I’d rather risk my luck then continue to anguish in loneliness and anxiety. Just trauma, abuse, neglect and loss wrapped with a bow

If things don’t change when my dog dies I know i will too, and that makes me sad. It makes me sad very few will care, makes me less sad also because less will hurt.

Constantly thinking things will get better and they don’t. While I watch everyone else around me living real lives.

It’s so tempting to just disappear and tell no one where I am. But if I do some how survive then I wouldn’t get my inheritance and then I’ll prob die anyway because I can’t function well enough to keep a job and soon I’ll be ugly and old and have no one.

Anyone know of any communes in US where I can bring my dog?

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u/itzallhapp3nin — 2 months ago