u/ivy-millie69

last year my parents took my door off for “skipping school” because I wasn’t going to math help, which didn‘t know I was supposed to go too, but instead of listening to me, they screamed at me, took my phone, and then sent me upstairs to go to bed. then not even two minutes later my dad came in, through the rack that was on my door on the ground and then took it of leaned it against the wall, then came back in and told me I was a horrible child for reporting them too CPS and saying ”your mom made some mistakes, but you will to when you grow up” and then got mad when I said I wouldn’t become an alcoholic abuser like she was. and I haven’t had a door since. my mom has actively told me they will put my door back on when my dad‘s ankle is better, his ankle was better two weeks ago and I still don’t have it back. I can’t do anything with my door off. if I want to change in my room, I literally have to go into my closet to do it. anyone can see into my room, and my can literally shoot me with a nerf gun any time he wants, and he does. they go into my room constantly and rummage through all of my stuff constantly. if I feel overwhelmed and like crying I have to into the bathroom to do it. I’m so tired of this. I just want my door back. is that so much to ask for?

ok, so before this past summer I was (and still am) incredibly touch starved. I took any chance I could get to hug people (specifically my best friend), I used to love holding hands with people, locking arms with them, hugging them, and cuddling (the cuddling with my bestie).

however, after the summer, something changed. I’m still touch starved, I want to cuddle and hug and just to be held, but whenever someone even grazes me, I feel disgusted, but for them. I feel so bad about them having to touch me, I hate the fact people have to talk to me or touch me, and when people touch me, it makes me radioactive, like I’m poisoning them just be being somewhat physically with me. Even just the thought of someone putting their hand on my shoulder makes me want to scream and cry.

does anyone know why this is? I tried looking it up but I don’t like the artificial intelligence answers (I can’t use the shortened version) and any website I found was similar but not similar enough. So here I am.

we’re still working things out, I’m not going to lie. i’ve only recently been able to somewhat accept the alters and system as itself.

I always knew of their existence, but it’s been a hard journey of self doubt. I don’t know much about did, and it was one of my alters (Luna) who convinced me to visit this sub Reddit (idk how she even knew about it) and learn more about it.

I’ve been trying to learn more about fictive’s due to having some in the system, and I found a discussion from three years ago about fictive‘s and how they work. there was a commenter talking about someone they knew who was faking did. Im not going to go over the whole discussion, and I’ll try to link the conversation but my phones broken so it might not work.

I’m terrified of being accused of faking, I know that everyone’s system is different and everyone is unique with their alters and I’m still trying to figure it out. I know my fear is probably stupid, and I genuinely feel very at home with the community.

I grew up in a very undermining household, so the might be the reason for my un rational fear, I just needed somewhere to vent about it.

Luna says that other people’s accusations don’t matter, that it doesn’t make us any less true or our experience any less real, but I’m still worried and scared.

https://www.reddit.com/r/SystemsCringe/comments/16wewxn/so_how_do_fictives_work_then/

(I actually just regained control from her so this inspired me lol)

I have a younger alter (age shifts between 6-8) named Kemi, and once a little while ago she fronted and was mad at me for not letting us watch her favourite show, so she grabbed my phone and sent a bunch of text messages to all my friends (including the ones who don't know about my DID) and sent them some…interesting messages (including a video to my friend that basically called him stupid) that I had to say my brother sent. she feels no remorse 😑💀

what about ya’ll?

ok, so I just made a post about me and my alter (I’m not sure if I’m using that right) I’m a fifteen year old (biological) girl, and since forever I’ve had someone in my head (this is hard to explain so bear with me). I can’t remember exactly when she showed up, but it was between the ages of 6-8 I think? this isn’t like an inner monologue or sm because we speak practically every day and have different opinions. example: my favourite colour is purple but she finds purple tacky and prefers red. my favourite food is hamburger/mash potatoes but she loves bananas while I don’t like them. we have completely different personalities and interests and even have arguments sometimes (not very often tho).

I made a most almost exactly like the one above, and we were told by a person in the comments to come here and look around. both of us find comfort in this community and see a lot of similarities with people in the subreddit.

ok so I’ve done a little research into this but whenever I think I’ve found something it doesn’t sound like whats going on. I’m a fifteen year old (biological) girl, and since forever I’ve had someone in my head (this is hard to explain so bear with me). I can’t remember exactly when she showed up, but it was between the ages of 6-8 I think? this isn’t like an inner monologue or sm because we speak practically every day and have different opinions. example: my favourite colour is purple but she finds purple tacky and prefers red. my favourite food is hamburger/mash potatoes but she loves bananas while I don’t like them. we have completely different personalities and interests and even have arguments sometimes (not very often tho). shes been telling me to make a post on Reddit to see if we’re the only ones, so I decided to listen to her and am currently typing this at the park.

I’ve never told anyone about her, not my parents, friends or anyone else, it’s always been our secret. I just need to know if there’s anyone out there like us, please.