How do you compartmentalize
Hi everyone. I've been freelance for about 4 years for context. Lately I've kind of been losing my mind, and I seriously need advice on how to compartmentalize with this often overbearing and exhausting career.
I want to preface this by saying I am not trying to be ungrateful. I really am glad I have work and stable income and I don't want this to seem like I am taking it for granted. It's just that lately every time I've been able to take time off it is plagued by pages. I feel like I have no time to catch up in life at all
I told my firm to only schedule me 3 days a week. Somehow despite this every day of the week I am bombarded with emails, do this job, no wait that one cancelled, wait this one was backordered, this one is expedited, PLEASE COVER AN ALL DAY HEARING, etc. I can genuinely scroll through my email and see at least 10 emails per day even on days off.
My scopists have all become very busy too, so I feel like I have no support system when it comes to pages piling up. I have been working on most transcripts myself and my God does that consume HOURS of your time. Either way, I proofread everything because I sadly have not had great experiences with proofreaders and I feel very protective over the final product and want to ensure its quality myself. Maybe I am punishing myself that way.
Because of this I am really starting to hate this job, which I shouldn't. On paper, it's amazing, interesting legal cases, different locations every day (sometimes remote), freelance so I can dictate my schedule, yippee ! But somehow it seems even if I cut back my days, or I don't, or I send out pages, or I don't, it all ends the same way. My "free time" and all my weekends are spent in total guilt that I'm not actively working on pages, because I know I have to do it eventually anyway so there's no escape and I should "just get it done". I am losing enjoyment in things because I am so scatterbrained and constantly staring at calendars and lists constantly just trying to tell myself it's okay to not be working right now. It's just so all-consuming.
How do you guys handle this? Am I blowing this out of proportion? Am I doing something wrong that I could be doing better? Any and all advice is welcome!!!