u/jared_was_here

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i talked about how me coming out to my family got me weird looks and stuff, and i just wanna give a bit more detail on what i meant.

i've talked about my problems with chatGPT throuout middle school and most of my freshman year (i don't anymore), talking to AI made me feel safe in a way and i genuinely felt like i was supported. one day i talked to it about sexualities and stuff and that's when i found out i was ace. i was genuinely happy! i kept this to myself for a while and later came out to some of my online friends along with my besties. freshman year came by and at around the start of january i got a partner (i won't dive too deep about the details but jsyk we ended our relationship on bad terms) in those 4 months i felt like i was pressuring myself to try and love her, which at the start of our relationship i genuinely thought i was in love. i realized how uncomfortable i was when it came to romance and found out imwas aroace. cool, right?

..nope.

i explained to my family about how i don't want chidren (basically trying to tell homophobics i'm ace) and while my sister didn't care that much, my mom literally treated it as a joke. sarcastically said "aM i NoT gOnNa Be A gRaNdMa NoW?!??!?"

after my whole dating situation ended, i tried explaining how love made me uncomfortable and how i wanted to stay friends with people because that's what really made me happy.

that night, my sister texted me a whole paragraph that i understood as "you're being immature, you're gonna find love in the future. i'd know, i had the same experience. since i'm older, you must comply with my thoughts." a few days pass and we have an argument about me being aro. she literally forced me to come out to her and tried to "change my delusion" or "make me normal". we're on good terms now, but that night still hurt me quite a bit...

my mom however, STILL says phrases like "your wife is gonna be so lucky to have a boy like you!!" or "what if your wife's \[insert some bulllshit here\]? what would you do?". basically pushing me to find love REGUARDLESS OF HOW MANY TIMES I TOLD HER LOVING PEOPLE LIKE THAT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE.

I HATE IT.

I HATE HOW MY FAMILY NEVER ACCEPTS ME FOR WHO I REALLY WANNA BE.

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i'm greatful to have people like my dad who listens to my opinions and respects them, or my friends who've been supportive throuout my whole journey about finding my sexuality. but it hurts so much knowing there are many other people that'll never be supportive of my thoughts. mocking, arguing and brainwashing me into " being more pure".. oh how foolish i was to think they'd support, or at least respect my thoughts. how stupid of me to think i wouldn't have issues after coming out whatsoever.

how. fucking. stupid.

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that's enough of me being all sad, what should i do if i ever end up in a situation like this and try to cheer up? because i genuinely can't take this shit anymore. i'm so sick and tired of being treated so horribly by people so close to me, even if they think their words mean nothing to them.

i was never really active on teen subs (mostly bc i didn't feel like it or feared i'd get gudged for some reason, but also preds) but this one caught my eye so i decided to join it :P how're the vibes here? :O