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my last 2-3 injections have felt noticeably more itchy but the one i did wednesday in particular it started to redden and itch like hell. those are the only signs i dont feel any lumps or hardness. i do subq and my bloodwork appt is in 3 days and ill mention it there. could this be an infection or something less serious like an allergy? i think its also worth mentioning i did it slightly more towards the side of my body than i usually do

hi im 19 ftm 2.5wks on T and need others opinions on which of these names fits me better: fox or toby, both are from fictional characters not the undertale dev guy

im 19 and just hit 2 weeks on T today (50mg or .25ml of 200mg/ml subq) & i would like others opinions on whether my gender goals seem realistic for me to meet further on t (or if there is anything i could do right now to help) because i feel like im going to have/already have passing blindness since ive been perceived as a girl while looking and sounding relatively the same for my life. first pictures are me between 1 and 2 weeks on it, and last 3 are from user foxblogz on pinterest that i would consider my gender goals, atleast for now while im younger. i dont really care about my body atm, i dont or cant bind or tape because my clothing style hides my chest most of the time, though i am short at 5ft 4 but ik that can't change, so most of my dysphoria is in my face and voice. a few differences i can already point out between me & my goals are thicker and wavier hair, faint facial hair on upper lip, and more defined facial features, and from what i have researched, some or all of these are able to get from a longer time on t. the only reference i have for a blood realted male in my family is my twin brother, though we are veryyy fraternal, im still kinda worried because his voice is higher for a cis guy and he lacks facial hair (given he is blond and im obviously not) so what if im stuck looking and sounding feminine forever 😞

i dont have any pics with my side profile because i hate it but its pretty flat and cuz of my deviated septum/bump it looks a little different from either side. not sure if that really impacts how masc i look in the grand scheme of things

another thing, im not trying to pass as cis/stealth nor do i feel fully traditionally masc, i kinda lie somewhere between of nonbinary and masc though im not nb at all and i dont dress or present myself super visibly queer. i feel like especially with the haircut, to me the goals ref pictures feel slllightly more androg but could still pass as a dude vast majority of the time, and that's essentially what i want to go for.

fully unstaged except i flipped over the cvs bags cuz personal info

that orange donut is a squishy needough thing btw its just a very.. interesting. color and shape

edit- the credit card was never activated and already expired so its not an issue

i really need to decide on a name before i go back to college because i would hate to change it a billion times💔 heres some preferences + things about me:

the names im drawn to seem (atleast to me) to be 1, less common where i live and 2, not hyper masc leaning maybe thats due to their uniqueness?? anyways i myself feel between traditional masculinity and androgynous but masc leaning so i dont want to go by like. chris or john. (i picked den to be short for denver cuz i didnt like dennis, but i sometimes like denny) im american and white but im open to european names that dont sound super ethnic. i like shorter names or ones that are nicknames for a longer version. nothing starting with vowels, nothing terribly ultra-cool sounding (zero, knox idk), and nothing that doesnt sound like a plausible name such as naming urself after an object.

i "used" to go by jesse like the guy from breaking bad, its the name i came out with that my parents still call me, i went by my first yr of uni, and i use it for irl stuff where i dont strictly need my legal name (like haircut or restaurant order). i picked it cuz at the time i felt more androgynous but it pmo when people would spell it the fem way or nickname me jess w/o asking so i want smth a bit more masc leaning. ive been considering Dex as of late but there are times where i dont feel cool enough😢

i have brown hair obvi, dont plan to dye it, blueish greyish maybe greenish? eyes w/ super small pupils, im short 5'4in, and very slim (i hope t will help me gain some weight but it may not be a tonnn bc of what ive seen in my genetics).. most of my clothes are black or grey, graphic tees, baggy jeans. only colors ill wear are if theyre like secondary on a graphic tee, mostly either red or blue. i dont accesorize a whole lot but i usually wear a dog tag necklace and a short dull spike bracelet

i had seen another guy talk about his hobbies and interests in a Name Me post so ig i'll include mine if it helps: video games (story driven, survival horror, action rpg, adventure, open world), any sort of media or literature with scifi or dystopian elements (jorjor wel, black mirror, eeaao, truman show, hunger games etc), building legos particularly technic cars and the lotr one, collecting vinyls/cds, my fav animals are rlly just any canine, music (midwest emo, various subgenres of punk and metal, industrial, ebm, goth), skateboarding, 2d art/drawing. i like aesthetics of small town, 90s/2000s, grunge, oregon as i like to call it (outdoors, woods, mountains), southern gothic, graffiti, abandoned buildings, foggy/rainy/stormy weather.. thats about all i can think of

pre everything :p not going for fully traditional masc (short hair nerfs me) not completely nb or androgynous either but if anything just not fem at all

idk i feel like my face/jawline looks more narrow on camera than it is irl cuz of the distortion

i also just got my hair cut a few hrs ago so i havent showered and styled it my own way yet