Need an accountability partner/someone to talk to…
I feel like I need someone to talk to, just someone to share and try and help reduce my anxiety around food and activities. Recently I’ve been struggling with anxiety, I’ve been trying to micromanage every outcome and find myself worrying about how much I’m eating day to day, generally I have no problem eating healthy, but I’ve been seeing food as more of a reward, or if I feel like I eat too much even if it’s a healthy food I force myself to burn it off. I find myself trying to earn my food and it’s been impacting every single day of my life, it’s all I think about. It’s impacted my relationship with my family and even school stuff… I don’t know what to do but I feel that having someone to talk to would help. I’ve been told I lost weight, but a lot of it was muscle, I’m still trying to stay active in the gym and recover what I had lost but it’s so frustrating and hard with poor sleep, it’s even been affecting my gastrointestinal system too, I searched it up and the closest thing I found to it is rumination disorder. After every meal I find myself regurgitating my food, it comes out exactly how it came in, no acid no nothing but it’s been really hard to keep my food down as well. I feel like I’m sharing too much but it feels nice to at least put this somewhere I can see it visually/let it all out…