u/juliawilldestroyyou

Weekend plans. Coincidences. God damns.
Family. Friends. Tragic ends.
Simple truths. Daring pursuits.
Questions. Answers. Absolutes.

His service. Her work.
Crimes. Accomplishments
Oddities. Quirks.

Bourbon. Movies. Mountain retreats.
Hawaiian shirts. Smoked meats.
Softball wins. Allergy stings
Red Birds swag. Wrestling rings.

Leather boots. Dark-washed jeans
Floating homes. City scenes.
Music. Lit. Linguistics. Art.
Cookie fortunes. “Wooden Heart.”

Pinball. Putt-Putt. Alley strolls
Dive bars. Dinners. Graffiti walls.
Lakeside seats. Food stand parks.
Puddle splashes. Driveway sparks.

Carillon bells. Bold moves.
Eagerly awaited. Charm approved.
Fire rockets. Party lights.
Thrift store trips. Summer nights.

Imperfection. Honesty. Decency.
Loyalty. Respect. Consistency.
Deception. Betrayal. Regret. Remorse.
Secrets. Shame. True North.

Softness. Survival. Trust. Belief.
Iron ships. Safety. Comfort. Grief.
Chaos. Cowardice. Heart thief.

For old times sake.

My ghoster will never face me to apologize or explain and give my mind closure.

I am writing my own closure.

He is ashamed of himself.

Let’s figure this out.

May the bridges they burn, light their way.

Fucking coward doesn’t have the fucking decency to show some basic fucking social courtesy. Fucking makes a fucking awkward situation fucking awful and even more fucking stupid.

Ghosting is an extreme form of ignoring someone. When you feel ignored, your brain processes it in the same way it processes being hit.

My mother, 82, has been moved out of her room three times in the last 6 weeks because of bed bugs. She has lived there for over 3 years. Nothing new has been introduced to her room. The facility assures me that pest control has treated her room and that there are no other cases in the facility. I call bullshit.

It has been almost one year since he ghosted. I have spent almost one year hoping for an explanation and apology. I am confessing this to you all as a means of getting a closure on a story with a sad ending.

I fucking got caught giving a fuck.