Getting increasingly nervous about birth
First time, and I don't know if I need advice, a pep talk, a good cry, or what. I've just hit 30 weeks and every day I'm getting more and more anxious about giving birth. Up until a couple years ago it was my biggest fear. I've been incredibly lucky this far that everything has been going according to plan. I have my glucose test in a couple days and I'm sure that will either make me feel better or worse depending on the results.
What is freaking me out now is if something changes or goes wrong and I end up needing to be induced or needing a C-section, both of which I absolutely want to avoid. I'm overweight and if I end up having gestational diabetes or developing preeclampsia later on I'm sure that will put me at higher risk. I also want to go without an epidural out of fear it could create the need for intervention. The fear of natural birth is bad enough, but the fear of needing intervention is almost paralyzing.
I'm so scared I'll make it to the end only to think that maybe I can't do this, or that something will go terribly wrong, and it's so hard not to have these thoughts. I hope I can stay strong and just remain adamant that I want to do things naturally when my baby and my body decide we're ready, as that seems like the way to go for me.
Any tips or advice are greatly appreciated, even if it's just to tell me to get a grip lol. I'd also love to hear your own experience.