u/killlu

I heard there’s a correlation between being ND and getting POTS. Apparently studies have shown that people with ADHD and Autism are more likely to get POTS in their early adulthood. About one THIRD of adult Autistic people may have POTS. That seemed so bizarre to me and considering those numbers definitely not talk about enough. Those numbers are probably even higher considering POTS diagnosis is either a pain in the ass to go through, or others just not knowing they have it in the first place because it surprisingly isnt recognized or considered enough in the medical field. My doctor didn’t even know what POTS was...

Either way, it’s a concept I never thought about since I have Autism/Asperger’s. (Before anyone comes at me, yes, I am diagnosed professionally) just weird to think about.

Luckily, right now I’m apart of the 70% of people who don’t faint from POTS. but I was curious if anyone here had previously been a non-fainter, and then started fainting eventually. I’m not sure how common that is. During the peak of the presyncope when I stand from lying down, I always wonder “is it finally my time” every time get a weird smell and come very close to blacking out, but I always end up recovering, and it’s especially helpful if I brace myself on a piece of furniture or a wall. And obviously, I always get this feeling sitting > standing. Reaching above my head for something, crouching down and coming back up, or on bad days just looking up or down, but it ofc it’s less severe than the lying>standing. Anyways, just wondering if I should actually watch out each time I almost black out, or if I’ll be fine for the most part

I feel like growing up I was shunned or annoying because of how expressive I was as a kid. Say or do things that people considered cringe. Now I can’t trust anything I do or say at all without thinking it’s cringe. And not even just to them, I cringe at MYSELF for anything I say, any of my own thoughts, anything I do, anything I share at all, even if no one is looking. And it’s gotten so bad, that when anyone *else* expresses themselves, I get second hand embarrassment too.

Talking (sharing about themselves especially), someone showing off achievements to anyone, someone answering a question or raising their hand when I was in school. singing, dancing, skating, literature, artworks, etc. It doesn’t matter if they were good at it or not. And it all correlates to people I know, not professionals. I just get the ick for everything.

Im convinced everyone feels this way whenever witnessing anything expressive. I just feel lame all the time, because at the end of the day, all of this cringe stuff still falls back on to me. I’m constantly self sabotaging myself and now it’s just bleeding out to everyone around me. I’ve basically become nothing but a hermit and a brick wall with no outward personality. I don’t really know how to stop it either