u/kittenincrisis

Hey all! I've been seeing a lot of people in this subreddit talking about Kurtis' "attitude" during streams lately, and I just wanted to say that there's a huge difference between a fully scripted YouTube video—with a topic, jokes, and talking points—and someone just turning on a camera to hang out live with a bunch of people.

On top of that, some of the criticism I've seen is incredibly nitpicky. I honestly don't blame Kurtis if he gets a little frustrated sometimes.

At the end of the day, he's human. He's allowed to be tired, frustrated, quiet, or just not in the mood to constantly crack jokes. Nobody is "on" all the time, and it's completely normal to have off days or moments where you don't have the same energy. That's just part of being a person.

So I’ve been lurking and occasionally posting in this subreddit after being told I likely had PMOS, but I officially got my diagnosis today.

Honestly, I don’t really know how to feel. How did everyone else feel after getting their diagnosis? I think maybe I’m happy, but I’m also still trying to process the fact that I now have a chronic illness.

I’m honestly excited to start medication because these past few months have been some of the hardest. The waiting, the tests, not knowing what was going on, and feeling so sick has been exhausting. I’ve also been dealing with having my period for two straight months along with a lot of pain, so I’m really hoping things start to improve.

I mostly just wanted to come on here and share this. I’m not totally sure how I’m supposed to feel right now, but I guess having some answers is a good thing.

Hi everyone. I’m feeling a little lost and I was hoping to hear from people who have been through recovery or who understand this better than I do.

I don’t have a formal eating disorder diagnosis, but disordered eating has been brought up in passing by my primary care doctor and by multiple nutritionists I’ve seen in the past. The problem is… nothing ever really happened after that. I don’t think my doctor is even aware of how much I’ve been struggling, and I don’t currently have a regular nutritionist or dietitian.

A big part of what makes this confusing for me is that my struggles aren’t just one thing. I’ve dealt with binge eating, but I’ve also struggled with food rules, guilt, and feeling like I need to control my eating. I feel like I’m stuck in this weird middle ground where I know my relationship with food isn’t healthy, but because I don’t have a diagnosis, I don’t feel like I “deserve” or qualify for more support.

I also want to clarify that I’m not completely starting from zero. I have been in a recovery group before and have tried to learn and work on things on my own, but nothing has ever turned into ongoing support or consistent care. My actual health has also never really been monitored throughout this process, which is part of why I’m wondering if I need more professional support.

Right now, I’m trying to recover mostly with the support of my therapist (who is genuinely amazing and has been a huge help), but I still feel like I’m doing a lot of this alone. To be honest, I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing when it comes to recovery. I’m trying my best, but I don’t always know what steps I’m supposed to take, what a healthy relationship with food is supposed to look like, or how to navigate everything without accidentally falling back into old patterns.

Sometimes I feel weird seeing people talk about their recovery teams and medical support because I don’t feel like I’m “sick enough” to ask for that kind of help. But at the same time, I’m starting to wonder if struggling is enough of a reason to get support.

I’m also currently going through the process of being evaluated for PCOS, and I know that taking care of my health and learning how to properly nourish myself is going to be important. I’m worried about trying to make changes for my physical health and accidentally falling back into unhealthy patterns with food.

Would it make sense to bring this up with my primary care doctor and ask about getting more support or a team involved (like an ED-informed dietitian, referrals, or other resources)? I always see people mention having a team during recovery, but I don’t really know how that works when you don’t have an official diagnosis.

I’d really appreciate hearing from anyone who has been in a similar situation — especially anyone who started getting support before having a formal diagnosis. Did you have to advocate for yourself to get help?

Hi all! I'm going to keep this short.

I'm in recovery and have been doing really well for quite a while. I still feel like I am overall, but I've had a really rough couple of days with binge eating. My stomach is absolutely wrecked right now—pain, nausea, bloating... if you've been through a bad binge, you probably know exactly what I mean.

I'm also feeling really anxious about tomorrow because I'm scared it'll happen again. I know going into the day with that mindset probably isn't helpful, but it's where my brain is at right now.

Does anyone have any recovery-friendly tips for the day after a binge that are gentle on the stomach? I also have a chronic illness, so exercise isn't really an option for me, and I have to be careful with food choices (which makes binge eating even more frustrating).

I'm mostly wondering what you find helpful after a binge—foods that are easy to tolerate, ways to settle nausea, or anything that helps your stomach recover. I know staying hydrated is important, but I always struggle after days like this because my stomach just feels so awful.

I'd really appreciate any advice or encouragement. ❤️

Hi everyone. For a little backstory, I’ve been dealing with disordered eating patterns for over 10 years now. Most of my struggles have been with binge eating, but I’ve also gone through periods of extreme restriction and purging as well. I’m not formally diagnosed, although it has been brought up by my doctor and several nutritionists, so I’m not really sure why that hasn’t happened.

I was recently part of a recovery group for 10 weeks, and honestly, it was such an amazing experience. It was informative, supportive, and I learned so much about my body, eating disorders, and recovery. For a while, I was doing really well. I was so unbelievably proud of myself. I honestly can’t even describe the feeling of finally feeling like food isn’t controlling your entire life anymore — but if you’ve experienced it, you probably know exactly what I mean.

The hard part is that this has happened before. I’ll have periods where I’m doing really well, and then slowly I start slipping back into old patterns. I wonder if there’s a sense of comfort or familiarity in it, even though I know it’s not healthy. Does anyone else ever feel that way?

To be fair, I’ve also been going through a lot recently. I was diagnosed with a chronic illness, and my grandma recently passed away. She and I were extremely close, so alongside the constant pain, feeling unwell, and trying to adjust to everything medically, I’m also grieving. I’m starting to wonder if that might be part of why I’ve been struggling again.

I’m trying so hard to give myself grace because I know I’m going through a difficult time, but it’s honestly really hard.

I guess what I’m wondering is: how do you pick yourself back up after a hard day and continue choosing recovery? It’s so difficult not to feel like giving up and falling back into old patterns when I’m already feeling low and then beating myself up for having a bad day.

I know I need to be kinder to myself, and it’s kind of funny because if someone came to me with this exact situation, I would know what to say. I would tell them to be compassionate with themselves and remind them that recovery isn’t a straight line. But when it’s yourself, it can be so much harder. I think that’s just a very human thing.

For anyone else in recovery, do you have any advice for maintaining a positive mindset, getting back up after setbacks, and continuing forward? I’m not really looking for food-related tips, more just the mental side of recovery.

Thank you so much ❤️

Hi everyone. For a little backstory, I’ve been dealing with disordered eating patterns for over 10 years now. Most of my struggles have been with binge eating, but I’ve also gone through periods of extreme restriction and purging as well. I’m not formally diagnosed, although it has been brought up by my doctor and several nutritionists, so I’m not really sure why that hasn’t happened.

I was recently part of a recovery group for 10 weeks, and honestly, it was such an amazing experience. It was informative, supportive, and I learned so much about my body, eating disorders, and recovery. For a while, I was doing really well. I was so unbelievably proud of myself. I honestly can’t even describe the feeling of finally feeling like food isn’t controlling your entire life anymore — but if you’ve experienced it, you probably know exactly what I mean.

The hard part is that this has happened before. I’ll have periods where I’m doing really well, and then slowly I start slipping back into old patterns. I wonder if there’s a sense of comfort or familiarity in it, even though I know it’s not healthy. Does anyone else ever feel that way?

To be fair, I’ve also been going through a lot recently. I was diagnosed with a chronic illness, and my grandma recently passed away. She and I were extremely close, so alongside the constant pain, feeling unwell, and trying to adjust to everything medically, I’m also grieving. I’m starting to wonder if that might be part of why I’ve been struggling again.

I’m trying so hard to give myself grace because I know I’m going through a difficult time, but it’s honestly really hard.

I guess what I’m wondering is: how do you pick yourself back up after a hard day and continue choosing recovery? It’s so difficult not to feel like giving up and falling back into old patterns when I’m already feeling low and then beating myself up for having a bad day.

I know I need to be kinder to myself, and it’s kind of funny because if someone came to me with this exact situation, I would know what to say. I would tell them to be compassionate with themselves and remind them that recovery isn’t a straight line. But when it’s yourself, it can be so much harder. I think that’s just a very human thing.

For anyone else in recovery, do you have any advice for maintaining a positive mindset, getting back up after setbacks, and continuing forward? I’m not really looking for food-related tips, more just the mental side of recovery.

Thank you so much ❤️

I wanted to make this post because I posted here a few days ago asking for advice regarding PMOS/PCOS and disability support, and I got a couple comments before deleting the post that were along the lines of “PMOS doesn’t affect functioning” or “it doesn’t affect the body significantly.” I know nobody meant harm by those comments, and I understand many people personally experience PMOS mildly, but honestly it left me questioning whether I was being dramatic about my own struggles.

I think it’s important to remember that PMOS/PCOS can present very differently from person to person. For some people it may mainly involve irregular periods or mild symptoms, but for others it can involve chronic fatigue, pelvic pain, migraines, insulin resistance, dizziness, inflammation, brain fog, depression/anxiety, sleep issues, and other symptoms that absolutely can impact daily functioning and quality of life.

Hormonal and endocrine disorders affect the entire body, not just reproductive health. The severity also varies a LOT between individuals. One person being able to function normally with PMOS does not mean everyone else can.

I’m not making this post to argue with anyone or invalidate people who have milder experiences. Honestly, I think it’s wonderful that some people are able to function day to day and live comfortably with PMOS/PCOS, and I genuinely want that for myself and everyone affected by this condition. I hope in my lifetime more research goes into hormonal and endocrine disorders so more people can have that experience and access better treatment and support. I just think we should be careful not to downplay other people’s experiences with chronic conditions, especially invisible ones. A lot of people are already struggling with feeling guilty, lazy, dramatic, or “not sick enough,” and comments like that can really get into someone’s head.

Again, I mean no harm by this post at all. I know most of the comments were trying to help and were speaking from personal experience. I just wanted to add some perspective and remind people that chronic illnesses are rarely one-size-fits-all.

Sending love to everyone dealing with PMOS/PCOS. Be kind to yourselves and to each other 🩷

Hi all. I’m currently waiting on a diagnosis, but my doctor is pretty sure it’s PMOS because I have a lot of the symptoms. I’ve always been a bigger girl, but over the past few years I’ve gained a significant amount of weight, and recovering from an ED has made everything feel even more complicated. I’m trying so hard to accept how I look and be kinder to myself, but it’s been really difficult. I know the weight is putting strain on my body, and it’s hard to believe this is my reality at 23 years old.

I want to be able to do the things other people can do and live a full, active life, but most days I struggle just to get through the day. I deal with chronic fatigue, migraines, and dizziness constantly, and sometimes I have to sit down because I’m scared I’ll pass out — which has happened before. I cry a lot in private and try my best to hide how overwhelmed I am from my family. I’m also insulin resistant, which I know isn’t uncommon with family history and PMOS.

I’m hoping that once I finally get an official diagnosis and start medication, things will begin to improve and maybe I’ll feel well enough to slowly make healthier changes and lose some weight. Right now though, this waiting stage feels endless. I’ve already had blood work done and I’m scheduled for an ultrasound next month.

Did anyone else feel this way before getting diagnosed? Did things improve once you had answers and started medication? I’m especially wondering if medication helped anyone with weight loss or made it easier to manage symptoms overall.

Just needed to vent a little. Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this on a hard day.