u/lauracroft2

Hi, I am 18 year old girl. Recently I have been giving all kinds of entrance exams and everything and failing in almost everything. My family have been abusive for as long as I can remember. My father is violent and my mother just takes the abuse. The environment is always wierd and depressed? Someone is always yelling and shouting or discussing it with me. Apart from this i have some more sexual trauma. I can't even sleep well because of sleep paralysis All of this has really messed up my mental health. And I have no way to get help .I am not trying to make excuses but i genuinely can't. I feel like I'll go mad. I am not able to study or do anything at all. Anything I loved isn't interesting. I am ruining myself.

I am suspecting adhd and autism but i don't have anyway to get help and get diagnosed.

I don't know what to do, I am scared. This year was my drop year. Which was wasted. I don't even know if I can even do anything in life. I don't know if I'll go to clg . I don't know if I'll be alive. I am just scared.

I just want to know if it is even possible for someone like me to even do good in life ? Someone who wasted the drop year. I did well in 10th and after that everything fell downhills.

If there's someone who's doing well in life with similar story then please share your journey with me. I am scared and lost, so I'll really appreciate it.

Thank you

Hi, I am 18 year old girl. Recently I have been giving all kinds of entrance exams and everything and failing in almost everything. My family have been abusive for as long as I can remember. My father is violent and my mother just takes the abuse. The environment is always wierd and depressed? Someone is always yelling and shouting or discussing it with me. Apart from this i have some more sexual trauma. I can't even sleep well because of sleep paralysis All of this has really messed up my mental health. And I have no way to get help .I am not trying to make excuses but i genuinely can't. I feel like I'll go mad. I am not able to study or do anything at all. Anything I loved isn't interesting. I am ruining myself.

I am suspecting adhd and autism but i don't have anyway to get help and get diagnosed.

I don't know what to do, I am scared. This year was my drop year. Which was wasted. I don't even know if I can even do anything in life. I don't know if I'll go to clg . I don't know if I'll be alive. I am just scared.

I just want to know if it is even possible for someone like me to even do good in life ? Someone who wasted the drop year. I did well in 10th and after that everything fell downhills.

If there's someone who's doing well in life with similar story then please share your journey with me. I am scared and lost, so I'll really appreciate it.

Thank you

So I am 18,f . since I was a child my father was always violent towards my mother and sister and sometimes me. I'll tell a few incidents. One time he grabbed my mother by hair and beat her in the middle of the night, my mother was screaming and calling my name but we were asleep. Another time he threw burning hot tea on her shoulder just because she wasn't drinking it. Most recently they fought again this time it was a verbal fight thankfully. He locked himself in his room for about a week, and refused to eat anything my mother made, refused to talk and everything. So I was the one handling everything. This was a year ago. After many small verbal fights were constant. Apart from these , he insults my mother, talks rudely and what not . I have stopped talking to him for about a year now . Today i told him i don't want his and my mother's worry. My mental health is ruined because of both of them and that I can't do this drama of pretending to be a happy family. He cried, he begged and even held my feet and asked for one last chance. He said everyone deserves atleast one chance to improve himself. But i said no . He kept asking again and again and again. And i said no again and again and again. Was i too harsh? Too cold? Was i wrong?