
how to get more experience and get closer to professional jobs, I'm... very lost.
I'm not here to vent so I'll keep the background short. I've wanted to open my own studio for years, and the original plan was to go to college and get a degree first. I hadn't thought farther than that because I figured I'd learn and plan more there. Long story short that fell through, so I started working on becoming commisions based and I've learned a lot catered to that. But that only works as a freelance artist. So I decided I needed to stop being afraid and try to jump in. But now I'm MORE afraid becasuse I don't have a degree, I've never worked, and my website is built on the fact that I have a unique style because that's what commisioners want.
I've gone on casting call club applying to everything I can because while they are still freelance jobs technically, I thought it could showcase more of my ability to animate when hired on to other people's projects. And I thought I'd be more easily "hired" (90% of the listings on there are unpaid or deffered payment where I don't really expect to be paid.) since most, I'll be honest, are started by small teams with even less experience than me. However, I've found the leadership on these projects is very unprofessional, I'm unsure whether to keep pursuing these projects, in case they might make me worse off for being so mismanaged that they collapse or read badly on me.
I don't really know where to go from here. I feel like no one will take me seriously if I keep going as is, I need help figuring out what to do and where to go, any possibilities or tips or personal experience helps. I have a lot of free time where I'm at however difficult it is and I feel I could do anything right now if I just knew where to start.
https://strwbrybbbee.carrd.co this is my website though I fear it's a bit embarraassing how unequiped it is for actual animation jobs.