u/lilspicymangobby

I left a very toxic relationship of over 13 years. However, I don't feel doomed for love or hate men regardless how awful this man was to me because I know not all men are like that. It's been about 3 months since I left and have gone through many stages. I'm not exactly looking for a relationship right now but instead healing, learning and unlearning things, and working on career goals. I am keeping an open mind with love, I don't want to live in fear or harden my heart because that's what I experienced in that relationship.

I was recently asked about my outlook in love after my experience. It made me realize that I don’t see this area of my life doomed even though I went through so much it would ruin someone’s perception in love and trust. Because I've been surrounded by strong women who have also been in unhealthy relationships and finally in healthy ones, it's been also helping me, inspirationally.

I'm feeling curious of other women that are or have been in the same boat before they finally found someone that changed their outlook in love drastically. I’m also curious what helped you? Maybe someone can come across this and it can help them ♥️

It’s been about a month a half since my ex and I broke up. He said he rebounded and even found someone who is life changing to him and shows him everything I’ve never done. Mind you we were together for 13 years. The girl he is seeing is about 10 years younger too and we are in our early 30s. I find it strange that he keeps also putting me down saying no one deserves me yet it’s unfair who ever I do get with will get what he didn’t. Also we have kids together. Been feeling awful the last month but just hitting me how pathetic this is 🥴 just had to let it out here pheww.

I’d like to add he somehow always reverts to the past even after talking about our kids. I quit responding and let him know

I had an astrology reading and was also told that they felt a deity with me. I was told I can channel which I am working on. She mentioned one Artemis then said she kept seeing the moon and two dogs showing up. She mentioned if I open up to them they can help me pass along the messages however I need to learn how to safely reach out first. I learned it’s Hecate and it’s interesting because she has been on my mind for a while and feel like I’ve seen her in my dreams a few times watching over me especially with the difficult changes going on in my life. I think she came to prepare me last summer in a dream. I’ll never forget that dream especially how powerful the presence felt.
Also I always have two women or one woman taking me places and showing me something before it happens. One of them took me to see my ex cheat on me while I was with him. She sat at a table and waited for me until it was time for us to leave the place.

Does anyone work with deities and has anyone else sensed them before?

It’s been a month since I left my 14 year relationship. It’s been very hard processing everything as I feel so much pain in my heart. However, when I connect with spirit and doing my oracle readings especially today, it’s as if all my fears, sadness, etc get washed away and I feel so light and good. Writing this brings tears to my eyes because as a single mother the weight I’ve been carrying gets lighter each time I connect. The reassurance and reflecting about myself has been making me see everything differently. The pain of grieving this relationship I’ve been experiencing for the last week it’s as if it’s lifting little by little and I feel this embrace whenever I connect with spirit. I also learned some things that hurt me regarding my ex but it’s as if I am held every time I cry. Like it’s going to be okay and I am full of love and will find again in the future (I was told otherwise from ex) so everything I have been told my mind is being reframed and lifted.

I just had to share that.

Around my birthday last year I had a dream where a woman was sitting down next to another lady and she was watching me attentively. She gave this very wise aura a little intimidating because she seemed like someone who was well respected. I felt like a student. When I approached her she asked me what abilities I had (I’m a lucid dreamer) and showed her. She also informed me that I need to prepare to change or hide my identity. Well since then life has been ramping up with events and having to let go of past self patterns, 14 year relationship, and a lot of shadow work lately. My psychic abilities have also been increasing. Telepathic and precognitive dreams have been more consistent. I noticed a pattern that women from all ages show up in my dreams often asking for my help and guidance.

I had other dreams again what felt like the two women guiding me. Recent one was both holding my hand helping me walk while I was pregnant in my dream and my water broke. I asked something about going back but told me I don’t need to worry about that where I am heading. It felt so symbolic I have no one to share with without sounding crazy. That’s just how vivid my dreams are.

I’ve had a strong pull with anything involving protecting women and children. I’m also very drawn to the moon cycles (it’s how I also keep up with my menstrual cycle) and anything connected to transformation.

So I come here to ask if anyone who works with deities has been reached out in dreams like this?

I don’t practice witchcraft but since I was a little girl I have always been drawn to it even collected things. I don’t know I’ve always found it like it feels like home to me. I did have a great aunt who did practice in Mexico her whole life but I don’t know about anyone else in my family since I’m not close with either side.

I had a reading confirming my abilities and to finally purse on growing them. I was told I need to learn to protect my capacity. It makes sense because since I was young I’ve struggled with anxiety but thinking about it it’s as if I’ve been picking up other energies. Like going into a building feeling fine then all of a sudden dread hits out of nowhere leaving me feeling dizzy and off sometimes ending up with a migraine.

I am very sensitive and pick up on a lot it’s like I have an antenna on my head. A lot will show in my dreams, visions, and etc. A few months ago I had a woman show up on my dream and told me I need to learn to protect my energy.

Yeah… too much information being thrown at me lately 😮‍💨