u/lisshothustara

I was waiting somewhere the other day and had about 5 minutes to kill. I took out my phone, without thinking. Not that I had anything to compare it against. There was not even a reason. It felt right.

It made me think of how uncomfortable those little empty moments nowadays. Sitting there doing nothing waiting a few minutes. I remember when I was younger I was bored all the time and it never looked to be a problem. Now it looks like my brain just wants to fill the space.

Maybe I am overthinking this but it got me thinking if I have become so used to constant excitement that boredom feels off now. I wonder if other people have noticed this too.

A few days ago I was thinking of something that a few years ago mattered to me a great deal. The strange thing was not that I had moved on from it. It was that I could hardly identify with the me who cared that much.

My life is same that much. Same routines. Same city. Same people. I am still in the same city.

But now I feel different in some way. There are certain things that used to bother me they do not bother me anymore, there are things I used to be obsessed with I do not even think about anymore.

It made me think of how maybe we turn into different versions of ourselves without realizing it in the moment. I do not know if it is just aging, spiritual growth or something else.

Does anyone else ever look at an older version of themselves and think they were almost a different person?

now I noticing how little my attention stays on whatever I am actually doing.

Yesterday I finished an full cup of coffee and realized I hardly tasted any of it. I was so busy thinking about work and a chat I would earlier in the week that I was not really paying attention to what I was doing.

That moment remain with me because it made me think about how often I am walking through parts of my day without really being in those moments

If you are practicing mindfulness, was there anything that helped you to become more aware of when your mind had wandered?